
Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I literally can't do anything that requires even a medium amount mental effort. I can't concentrate, I can't go out of my comfort zone of numb and mindless vegetating in front of a screen for more than a few minutes.
I am not exaggerating at all when I'm saying that for many years now, all I've really done is watch the same few sitcoms over and over, for many hours a day, either in the background or actively watching. Other than that I'd be browsing youtube or reddit and maybe 1 or 2 other sites. And the most mentally demanding activity I do is searching for games to play, only to install them and delete them soon after. Most games I end up playing for 10 minutes, and I must've installed many hundreds of games.
I can't even play more complicated games nowadays, I literally don't have the patience to learn a game. I can't even play MMOs, of all things I don't have the patience and the mental power to even focus on MMOs anymore. I can't even read a book anymore, at least not without skimming a lot and then after 30 minutes just giving up on the book and looking for a summary cause I don't have the patience.
And I now have an even shittier memory than I used to. I keep repeating myself in conversations, asking the same question I did 20 seconds ago. And for example, for the last few days I kept calling strawberries as "tomatoes" for some fucking reason, and I keep calling "masks" "gloves".
I'm at the level of a potato nowadays, where I watch the same few sitcoms for more than 50 times (some with 9+ seasons, each season having 24 episodes), and the biggest ambition in my life is to find a game to pass the time with, only to keep searching for games, installing and uninstalling them over and over (sometimes the same game over and over).
I am not exaggerating at all when I'm saying that for many years now, all I've really done is watch the same few sitcoms over and over, for many hours a day, either in the background or actively watching. Other than that I'd be browsing youtube or reddit and maybe 1 or 2 other sites. And the most mentally demanding activity I do is searching for games to play, only to install them and delete them soon after. Most games I end up playing for 10 minutes, and I must've installed many hundreds of games.
I can't even play more complicated games nowadays, I literally don't have the patience to learn a game. I can't even play MMOs, of all things I don't have the patience and the mental power to even focus on MMOs anymore. I can't even read a book anymore, at least not without skimming a lot and then after 30 minutes just giving up on the book and looking for a summary cause I don't have the patience.
And I now have an even shittier memory than I used to. I keep repeating myself in conversations, asking the same question I did 20 seconds ago. And for example, for the last few days I kept calling strawberries as "tomatoes" for some fucking reason, and I keep calling "masks" "gloves".
I'm at the level of a potato nowadays, where I watch the same few sitcoms for more than 50 times (some with 9+ seasons, each season having 24 episodes), and the biggest ambition in my life is to find a game to pass the time with, only to keep searching for games, installing and uninstalling them over and over (sometimes the same game over and over).