Venting I like to purposely destroy myself even more when shits already going bad

[Vermilioncore]

Might be just a weird way my subconscious likes to cope, but when things are going bad for me, I purposely try to make things go worse.

For example, if someone heightmogs me and I have to take a photo with them, I purposely crouch down even lower to make it appear like I'm even shorter than I really am.

Another example is when I'm out with a friend at a mall and a foid flirts with him (usually waves at him or flirtatiously laugh with their friends while smiling at him) I then try to look even uglier and fatter and generally just give off a sloppy vibe.

Sometimes making shit go worse for you gives you a rush.

 

[jerrycan dan]

 

[Subhuman Gamercel]

I understand it. In my lowest moments destructive thoughts and behaviour are present in me.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

it's because you used to do the opposite and got sick of it, relatable

 

[Deleted member 17883]

If you can't beat em.

Squat on'em.

 

[mylifeistrash]

it's because you used to do the opposite and got sick of it, relatable

Very good observation.

At some point you eventually think "The harder I try, the worse I actually make it. Fuck it, I'm in control now, I'm going to burn this shit down."

 

[michael2222]

I do the same OP. I did fashion maxxing for a while. Now when I go out in public I walk around with uncombed hair, sloppy wrinkled clothes, dirty shoes, etc.

I wasn't treated or viewed any better. If all the world is going to see me as sub-human because my race is ambiguous, then there's no point in trying to be anything different.

 

[StaroRavager]

If I’m placed in a bad position due to artificial reasons then I’ll double down on my previous statements or actions. If I have an issue that does not involve the interference or unaccomodating behavior of others then I try to resolve it

 

[Deleted member 5333]

this sounds familiar

 

[blond_elf_bard]

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lmao @ this pic

 

[Michael15651]

I understand it. In my lowest moments destructive thoughts and behaviour are present in me.

We are who we are, no changing that.

 

[Deleted member 16455]

I can kind of understand you I guess. You wanna make it seem like youre in control so you wont be as upset when people make rude comments