Venting I lack the drive to change

[Guest2]

I can't even do things like going out to get a haircut or ordering new clothes. It, for some reason or another, fills me with dread, and I don't understand it. Why don't I had the mental fortitude to work through my sorrows and depressive episodes, towards a better life, instead of just sitting here like a fucking chump. All I want to do is LDAR and watch the world pass me by, but I desire change. Why can't I do anything, like play music out loud or break any barriers that would make me visible? Maybe it's because of my mother oppressing me throughout life and just telling me to be quiet, and her general obnoxious behaviour that continues today. Maybe it's just my nature. I'm a lazy piece of shit who follows society's guidelines and boundaries, and where does it get me?

 

[Nothingness]

I can't even do things like going out to get a haircut or ordering new clothes. It, for some reason or another, fills me with dread, and I don't understand it. Why don't I had the mental fortitude to work through my sorrows and depressive episodes, towards a better life, instead of just sitting here like a fucking chump. All I want to do is LDAR and watch the world pass me by, but I desire change. Why can't I do anything, like play music out loud or break any barriers that would make me visible? Maybe it's because of my mother oppressing me throughout life and just telling me to be quiet, and her general obnoxious behaviour that continues today. Maybe it's just my nature. I'm a lazy piece of shit who follows society's guidelines and boundaries, and where does it get me?

Maybe it is just your look?

 

[Insomniac]

Try stimulants

 

[Deleted member 16455]

same I have nothing to look forward to.

 

[mybodyisrotting]

Yes bro I know how you feel, I want to improve, but I've passed the point of it being possible. It feels like the mental cost of every single activity is increasing day after day, but the energy pool is not growing at all. My body is rotting away piece by piece.

 

[Valiant Virgin]

I know how you feel. I find it hard to motivate myself to do things a lot of the time. I've booked some time off work later in the year with a view to arranging a trip away somewhere, but I'm so lazy and apathetic when it comes to actually putting in the work of arranging it that I probably won't get round to it.

 

[ihaveno1]

and you probably lack the license to drive in the first place