I wake up , I start my pc and I start playing roblox white room game , every time a bacon goes infront of a girl in that room she just moves away from him , and is not just bacon's EVERYONE ONE WHO isn't have the Tyrone like avatar or some clothsmaxxed gl face , girls run from u 10/10 times. I realise that so I close the pc. Ok now I open my phone and I goon usually to tsuande tits or feet ( sakura, hinata , kushina or if I don't do that I just open xhamster and I watch girls masturbate. I ejaculated 3 times per day at least. But while I'm doing that I always think I want that to happen irl but it won't cuz I'm ugly . BLACKPILL BLACKPILL WHATEVER I DO I ONLY ECOUNTER BP. After I go outside for a 5 min walk I see couples on the street and man this feels like hell, It just makes me feel like killing them bouth or if I don't encounter couples I see girls In shorts walking fast hurrying up I know they going to suck Chad's dick whtich drives me again mad. OK I go back in the house sit in my bed all day and I keep telling myself DO NOT THINK DO NOT THINK cuz all my past experiences are to brutal I don't wanna risk remembering them. Once I need to to the pharmacy and buy quetipine 50 mg and today I saw a couple giving me that superiority smirk ( I'm pretty sure it was if it wasn't its not my fault cuz I'm fucking tired and sick of my shit life , do not come at me and say the last part about the couples it just in my head nigga I ain't no autist.
