I want to be another face in the crowd, but yet I stand out like fucking burn victim due my ugliness. I'm tired of being a walking horn effect that is treated like toxic waste by everyone. Not to mention the looks of disgust random people give me just for existing and minding my own business. I don't feel comfortable in my own skin, when I see a picture of something beautiful I can't even admire it nor can I relate to it becuase I don't even feel like I'm a part of this world. The feeling of the sun hitting my face and feeling the rays as they reflect back to everyone my imperfections is pure suicide fuel. Normal looking people don't realize how well they have it, they could be lonely as fuck but they can at least live normal lives and participate in normal people activities without being treated or looked at like pests. I must have been a mass murdering r4pist in my previous life to deserve this.
