Might sound kinda stupid, yeah obviously I can’t have a fictional character because fictional characters are fictional characters
But I just had this sharp and sudden discernment that I’ll never have her, it doesn’t matter what I do here on this earth.
It’s hard to describe, have you guys ever joked about how shit your life is and then realized shortly afterwards that your life is shit? Like a “oh………..” sort of realization? Hard concept to explain idk.
But yeah it just hit me today, I’ll never experience anything with her.
It’s not even really about the lookism or lust, I know most modern relationships are glorified symbiotic vague contracts, Like even with younger good looking people. They’re social interactions are all the same, let’s say a chad sees a Stacey at some peak degenerate hedonistic nightclub. They’ll gaze upon each others looks and then go back home and drunkenly fuck and then maybe salvage something out of it.
I guess what I am try to say is that the above mentioned example is just a product of being in the right place at the right time, chad and Stacey used each other to release their sexual urges and now they fill obligated to entangle each into their respective lifestyles.
I DO NOT feel the same way with my parasocial relationship with Jill, my feelings are not organic or symbiotic, they are beyond human understanding.
something only I am capable of understanding.
But I just had this sharp and sudden discernment that I’ll never have her, it doesn’t matter what I do here on this earth.
It’s hard to describe, have you guys ever joked about how shit your life is and then realized shortly afterwards that your life is shit? Like a “oh………..” sort of realization? Hard concept to explain idk.
But yeah it just hit me today, I’ll never experience anything with her.
It’s not even really about the lookism or lust, I know most modern relationships are glorified symbiotic vague contracts, Like even with younger good looking people. They’re social interactions are all the same, let’s say a chad sees a Stacey at some peak degenerate hedonistic nightclub. They’ll gaze upon each others looks and then go back home and drunkenly fuck and then maybe salvage something out of it.
I guess what I am try to say is that the above mentioned example is just a product of being in the right place at the right time, chad and Stacey used each other to release their sexual urges and now they fill obligated to entangle each into their respective lifestyles.
I DO NOT feel the same way with my parasocial relationship with Jill, my feelings are not organic or symbiotic, they are beyond human understanding.
something only I am capable of understanding.
