Just jerked off a few hours ago and just cleaned myself up unfortunately I didn’t clean my browser so I came into contact with the pornography I was beating off too and will probably have to fap again to start off fresh
I want to become asexual I don’t care anymore, I never wanted to have these degenerate feelings or impulses, I know you guys will say “why do you care your an incel” but understand pornography makes your pain and obsession 1000X worse. The guilty is unbearable, I just want restart my life and end up with a organic relationship with a foid without the internet and with a pure untainted mind.
Am literally a sexual abuse victim because I came into contact with pornography at a young age,this addiction has screwed me up. As an adult i have developed mazophilia because of it so I literally don’t find flat chested foids attractive at all. It also fucked up my preteen and teen years beyond repair.
I just want a foid to cuddle with and experience a life with, but no that’s never going to happen so why get the hell off the ground.
If I can’t live a normie life then I want to become a combine Solider, an inhuman life for an inhuman world (but no even that’s TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR Instead I have to go to my shit wage job exposing my ugly face to the public as I hang my head in shame)
I got to stop bitching about my life on an incel form, it’s no good it’s the same struggle different day. I don’t want to be 30 and still be posting on here. I’ve literally posted this dozens of times and still the same lost battle.
Am going to go full self improvement mode before I commit self deletion via cop, but I feel as if self improvement will be impossible to do on my own due to my lifestyle, the only would be boot camp or something.
But I can’t just give up and surrender, but Regardless time moves forward
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=uU2CpXGri5A&pp=ygUgbXIga2l0dHkgZ2xhc3MgaW5zaWRlIHlvdXIgc2t1bGw%3D
I want to become asexual I don’t care anymore, I never wanted to have these degenerate feelings or impulses, I know you guys will say “why do you care your an incel” but understand pornography makes your pain and obsession 1000X worse. The guilty is unbearable, I just want restart my life and end up with a organic relationship with a foid without the internet and with a pure untainted mind.
Am literally a sexual abuse victim because I came into contact with pornography at a young age,this addiction has screwed me up. As an adult i have developed mazophilia because of it so I literally don’t find flat chested foids attractive at all. It also fucked up my preteen and teen years beyond repair.
I just want a foid to cuddle with and experience a life with, but no that’s never going to happen so why get the hell off the ground.
If I can’t live a normie life then I want to become a combine Solider, an inhuman life for an inhuman world (but no even that’s TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR Instead I have to go to my shit wage job exposing my ugly face to the public as I hang my head in shame)
I got to stop bitching about my life on an incel form, it’s no good it’s the same struggle different day. I don’t want to be 30 and still be posting on here. I’ve literally posted this dozens of times and still the same lost battle.
Am going to go full self improvement mode before I commit self deletion via cop, but I feel as if self improvement will be impossible to do on my own due to my lifestyle, the only would be boot camp or something.
But I can’t just give up and surrender, but Regardless time moves forward
View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=uU2CpXGri5A&pp=ygUgbXIga2l0dHkgZ2xhc3MgaW5zaWRlIHlvdXIgc2t1bGw%3D
