I only had television which I used to only watch when dad wasn't home and once he was home, nobody could turn the television on unless it'd be Sunday or if mom was watching it.
He'd shout if he saw us watching it for more than just a few minutes, he always wanted us to just stick to the books and do nothing else.
He'd even get angry over playing sports, wtf am I supposed to do .
So I just daydreamed while keeping my books opened and pretending to be studying.
I never had a gaming console or even a PSP or even a PC(not even a basic one).
My father hated all these electronics, saying that our only purpose is to study , eat and sleep.
I didn't have a smartphone until the final year of High-school and not even a laptop until last winter, that too for College and just a basic one.
The point is, I couldn't even cope in peace.
At home there never was peace, if it wasn't my father shouting at me and mother or other siblings, it was my elder brothers fighting and sometimes even beating me for even speaking a word out against them.
Mom was never really present for me, she didn't care what I was going through.
I could only count on my maternal grandma and unfortunately she passed away too soon when I was barely 13.
I used to spend summer with her cuz I actually couldn't live in that hellhole for 3 months without going insane.
School was okayish but still stressful cuz they thought I was the gifted child, but little did those High-school diploma teachers knew thag I just knew the basics of anything and could just do everything quicker than others.
Didn't get bullied much but didn't live the school life either,just existed there as a NPC for the popular kid's life story.
I could only jerk off and just daydream all my teenager years, even gooning was a problem in this home cuz I never had my own room and I had to go the bathroom to goon and even there I was bothered by my asshole siblings.
Life is just brutal, I'm glad that I have grown out of theae situations and atleast am unbothered by people most of the time.
That's one way to see it but another way would be much more brutal, missing out on teenage life, childhood or just life.
The last birthday I enjoyed was back in 2007 with all of my family in my hometown.
He'd shout if he saw us watching it for more than just a few minutes, he always wanted us to just stick to the books and do nothing else.
He'd even get angry over playing sports, wtf am I supposed to do .
So I just daydreamed while keeping my books opened and pretending to be studying.
I never had a gaming console or even a PSP or even a PC(not even a basic one).
My father hated all these electronics, saying that our only purpose is to study , eat and sleep.
I didn't have a smartphone until the final year of High-school and not even a laptop until last winter, that too for College and just a basic one.
The point is, I couldn't even cope in peace.
At home there never was peace, if it wasn't my father shouting at me and mother or other siblings, it was my elder brothers fighting and sometimes even beating me for even speaking a word out against them.
Mom was never really present for me, she didn't care what I was going through.
I could only count on my maternal grandma and unfortunately she passed away too soon when I was barely 13.
I used to spend summer with her cuz I actually couldn't live in that hellhole for 3 months without going insane.
School was okayish but still stressful cuz they thought I was the gifted child, but little did those High-school diploma teachers knew thag I just knew the basics of anything and could just do everything quicker than others.
Didn't get bullied much but didn't live the school life either,just existed there as a NPC for the popular kid's life story.
I could only jerk off and just daydream all my teenager years, even gooning was a problem in this home cuz I never had my own room and I had to go the bathroom to goon and even there I was bothered by my asshole siblings.
Life is just brutal, I'm glad that I have grown out of theae situations and atleast am unbothered by people most of the time.
That's one way to see it but another way would be much more brutal, missing out on teenage life, childhood or just life.
The last birthday I enjoyed was back in 2007 with all of my family in my hometown.
