I had to start becoming less spergy about a year ago when I finally got my first job and had to interact with loads of new and random people from all over so I decided to fake confidence and learn to talk in a normie-human manner. it's worked pretty well I think and I think I'm still improving it shockingly.
In day to day life, it has worked. I'm not popular at work per se but I know everyone and everyone knows me and is ok with my presence which is more than I've ever had and is the biggest "social" circle I've ever had (it's the only one)
I've made some friends at work I guess, but nothing outside of work. This leads to romance, I've tried being flirty and charming to women in many ranges and many races and many varieties in terms of their looks. I have got nothing but contempt from them.
Dirty looks are nothing new to me and nothing has changed, I can make them laugh, I can give compliments without spilling the spaghetti and they take the compliments well but that's it. I can not get in to any other phase of conversation besides friendly chatting, no chance has opened to ask for a Snapchat or phone number or even a "see you tomorrow". They don't look forward to talking to me I can tell, they only laugh if I say something genuinely funny and a laugh will just burst out of course.
Now let's move to the internet where I've practiced my charm and personality as well as online. I have received nudes, had women develop crushes (I can tell by their language) and like me and want face reveals (after nudes and without nudes at all). When they receive that reveal though, I get nothing but less and less from them (nudes and conversation). I think it's obvious what happens here. I'm ugly, I've always been ugly and disliked. It's why I'm a socially awkward, mentally fucked shut in at heart still. I don't believe I let that show with the platonic feedback I get from the people I work with.
Having a good personality is a meme and I can't believe I fell for normie lies yet again.
I know this isn't news to many here but it's just so disheartening to have it happen in real life, not just online.
There's no personality for your face.
In day to day life, it has worked. I'm not popular at work per se but I know everyone and everyone knows me and is ok with my presence which is more than I've ever had and is the biggest "social" circle I've ever had (it's the only one)
I've made some friends at work I guess, but nothing outside of work. This leads to romance, I've tried being flirty and charming to women in many ranges and many races and many varieties in terms of their looks. I have got nothing but contempt from them.
Dirty looks are nothing new to me and nothing has changed, I can make them laugh, I can give compliments without spilling the spaghetti and they take the compliments well but that's it. I can not get in to any other phase of conversation besides friendly chatting, no chance has opened to ask for a Snapchat or phone number or even a "see you tomorrow". They don't look forward to talking to me I can tell, they only laugh if I say something genuinely funny and a laugh will just burst out of course.
Now let's move to the internet where I've practiced my charm and personality as well as online. I have received nudes, had women develop crushes (I can tell by their language) and like me and want face reveals (after nudes and without nudes at all). When they receive that reveal though, I get nothing but less and less from them (nudes and conversation). I think it's obvious what happens here. I'm ugly, I've always been ugly and disliked. It's why I'm a socially awkward, mentally fucked shut in at heart still. I don't believe I let that show with the platonic feedback I get from the people I work with.
Having a good personality is a meme and I can't believe I fell for normie lies yet again.
I know this isn't news to many here but it's just so disheartening to have it happen in real life, not just online.
There's no personality for your face.
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