I would never drink or smoke. I don't have the desire.
I don't understand what makes us choose our copes. I know two other depressed incels irl. One of them to avoid thinking about his problems works and runs, the other, instead, smokes. Meanwhile I watch porn. Our situations are the same but because our copes are different, the first guy at least is healthy and has a god career, while the second and I are losers in all aspects of life. Some normies after they breakup gain 15 kg of fat, others gain 15 kg of muscle at the gym. Why? Why couldn't I pick running or studying or playing piano as coping too? I try to run and workout but I absolutely despise it, can't do it when I feel too bad and have no discipline. When I feel down I just want to lay down and masturbate. It would be cool to enjoy things that are actually good for you.
