- Mar 5, 2023
There is a girl in my class. 2 weeks ago, I was smoking alone after the exam and she came up to me and asked me for a cigarette. I gave up the cigarette and we talked for 10 minutes, mostly about lessons and I said goodbye. Of course, I know that doesn't mean anything, I'm not that autistic. But on Tuesday this week, this girl was late for class, even though there were dozens of empty chairs in the classroom, she came and sat next to me with a smile and said hello. I replied with a hello and that was it. I couldn't do more. It's so obvious that girl likes me but my undiagnosed autism is ruining everything. Why do we have to talk to a female before we have sex with her? Why do we have to take him to a boring cafe, concert or bar? Why do we have to have meaningless conversations? If we both like each other, why don't we have direct sex like all other animals? I can't do these things, I don't have the ability to talk or socialize. And for the feminist lurkers, This does not mean that I see women only as sex objects. I am quite female friendly, I just love them more deep and impuslive way. A baby cannot talk to his mother, but he loves and desires her more than anything else. I love women but I prefer expressing myself other ways than talking.