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CrackyChanFan
Self-banned
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- Joined
- May 8, 2018
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I hate having a sexuality. It's humiliating and embarrassing; it's used as a tool of humiliation and bullying constantly. I hate that is has such a dominant control over my mind and interferes in other things, like work and hobbies. It's like my mind is enslaved to something and everyone's laughing at me for being pathetic. I am disgusted and disappointed in myself immediately after watching porn and masturbating. I can imagine people thinking how weak and pathetic I am. How awful and degenerate my inner perversity is.
Sexuality is a weakness. It's a desire. It lets women have control over you. It lets a bug in your head have control over your thoughts. What could I achieve with no sexuality? How much more space in my brain would be free-ed up?
I just wish there was a way to become completely asexual, without fucking up my body and losing physical strength. Chemical castration really messes up your strength and bone density.
Sexuality is a weakness. It's a desire. It lets women have control over you. It lets a bug in your head have control over your thoughts. What could I achieve with no sexuality? How much more space in my brain would be free-ed up?
I just wish there was a way to become completely asexual, without fucking up my body and losing physical strength. Chemical castration really messes up your strength and bone density.