I absolutely hate myself. Everything about myself. My facial structure, my skull-shape, my torso shape, my height, my hair type, my skin color and my penis. I can't stand to look at this abomination in the mirror. I couldn't even create something like this if I self mutilated on my own. I am literally a mutational genetic defect. No style of any set of clothes I put on this fucking disgusting body will never look good. I will literally drench myself in Cologne and still feel insecure about my smell. I can't stand my own voice when I talk so I always shut the fuck up everywhere. I couldn't even stand up for myself if I were to get beaten. I'm too weak and small. I couldn't even require my own basic human rights. I am the most pathetic being I have ever encountered, genuinely..even ants have more willpower than I do. I am literally the biggest disappointment I've ever known. I've never seen such a fuck up before. I can't keep a simple job because I am so retarded and now my parents have put an ultimatum to kick me the fuck out and stop supporting me. Forget about a romantic relationship I'm losing my family relations right now. My family can't or won't even look at me in the face, they seem genuinely disgusted and disappointed in me and probably wish they never had me. Honestly I don't even know why I wake up anymore. I guess I'm too much of a pussy to actually kill myself.
