They all just went to hang out together and they did so by sneaking out of the house as if they were sneaking away from their 3 year old sibling because they didn't want me to join them, its not like I even wanna join them or whatever but I just hate the fact how theu treat me and make me feel like a subhuman when they do that.
it has been like this for as long as I can remember. Back when I was still in elementary school/ highschool they did the same thing and I know it is because they didn't wanna be seen with the schools laughingstock bullied kid. They often thought I didn't see them but I did.
My mom used to tell me that it was simply because they didn't wanna hang out with their younger sibling and that I'd understand when I was older, but that just wasn't the case and it got proven now that they still do it and now even my teenage youner sibling joins them but they still never ask me. I have never done anything to them to make them hate me like this either, they just don’t wanna be seen or hang out with me even now that I’m 22.
This really hurt me when I was little because it just fuelled my feelings of feeling so unwanted and unloved. I remember thinking that it's over if even my siblings (who are obligated to care about me) don't wanna hang out with me no one ever will, not friends (that I have never had) and certainly not a foid. I'll be on my own always.
I hate them for this especially my older siblings who never stood up for me when I was bullied and in fact ignored it and fuelled my feelings of hopelessness. Its so unfair that all their lives are better then mine.
I can't wait to move out and never have to look back at any of them ever again.
it has been like this for as long as I can remember. Back when I was still in elementary school/ highschool they did the same thing and I know it is because they didn't wanna be seen with the schools laughingstock bullied kid. They often thought I didn't see them but I did.
My mom used to tell me that it was simply because they didn't wanna hang out with their younger sibling and that I'd understand when I was older, but that just wasn't the case and it got proven now that they still do it and now even my teenage youner sibling joins them but they still never ask me. I have never done anything to them to make them hate me like this either, they just don’t wanna be seen or hang out with me even now that I’m 22.
This really hurt me when I was little because it just fuelled my feelings of feeling so unwanted and unloved. I remember thinking that it's over if even my siblings (who are obligated to care about me) don't wanna hang out with me no one ever will, not friends (that I have never had) and certainly not a foid. I'll be on my own always.
I hate them for this especially my older siblings who never stood up for me when I was bullied and in fact ignored it and fuelled my feelings of hopelessness. Its so unfair that all their lives are better then mine.
I can't wait to move out and never have to look back at any of them ever again.
