I hate the fact I sometimes just crave intimacy or affection. I'll be desperate for any kind of contact with a girl, but at the same time I know I'll never have it.
I hate this so much. How could my brain possibly want to pursue women even after being rejected by the least conventionally desired ones? It knows that I'll be rejected by fat or disabled women, hell, I've tried to approach autistic non-NT girls who might put up with my social awkwardness and I still get rejected. It's clear to me that there's no hope for me to ever be in any sort of romantic relationship whatsoever.
Why can't my brain accept that? Why do I still feel a drive to pursue girls even when I'll never have any kind of relationship with them? God I fucking hate it.
To add insult to injury, I browse Chadfish threads and see how women line up to meet every one of Chad's demands, even Chads that say they're fucking child rapists or something. It's so fucking stupid.
I hate this so much. How could my brain possibly want to pursue women even after being rejected by the least conventionally desired ones? It knows that I'll be rejected by fat or disabled women, hell, I've tried to approach autistic non-NT girls who might put up with my social awkwardness and I still get rejected. It's clear to me that there's no hope for me to ever be in any sort of romantic relationship whatsoever.
Why can't my brain accept that? Why do I still feel a drive to pursue girls even when I'll never have any kind of relationship with them? God I fucking hate it.
To add insult to injury, I browse Chadfish threads and see how women line up to meet every one of Chad's demands, even Chads that say they're fucking child rapists or something. It's so fucking stupid.
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