Brutal I hate life

[darkie]

I have OCD so doing little things to even give me dopamine can be hard for me, for example I sit in my thoughts and argue with myself about compulsion for hours a day. I usually cant do anything productive before 4 because thats when its the worst. I mean I cant even get enough will power or focus to turn on my computer to play games or if I do I end up staring at the lobby, I have OCD with reading and animes and TV where I always need to go back and re read what I said, I cant take showers properly because im afraid I havent rinsed all the soap off of me, this plus inceldom I cant even cope with dopamine to enjoy life, I cant even do the things that you guys can do for happiness ropemaxxing might be the only thing for me

 

[lonely_slavi]

Do you also have to count numbers in your head like 5,10,7,12 and for example move your Fingers or toes per Number. Thats what i do. And the reacouring bad memories that torment me and the people in them ,,talking,, to me from the past to the present moment and you argue with them. I feel you bro its really soul draining.

 

[Caichan]

Life feels like a joke

 

[Caichan]

Life feels like a joke

I feel like a big clown