Deleted member 8353
Former Hikikomori, Aimless Pleasure Seeker
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It's a demand that simply doesn't come naturally to me, I have to force myself to behave in a manner opposite to my nature. This is part of the reason why approaching is so difficult for me, as even if I didn't have social anxiety, it just isn't the way I act when I'm not consciously forcing myself to do so.
When I first accepted AWALT it destroyed me tbh, I now admit that I once wanted a 3D foid who would accept me for who I am, and wouldn't expect me to the initiative in most scenarios. Of course I've long since accepted that such an expectation is hilariously unreasonable, and that if I ever want even a chance at getting a foid, then I'd have to suppress my own nature. That might be why it always feels like I have to put on a show for other people, I mean normies do that all the time, but I'm saying in my case, it's probably even more of a performance than usual. Having to pretend to be someone I'm not is both exhausting and totally unappealing to me. So much for "just be yourself bro", my personality and interests together create what is basically repellent to foids, nevermind my appearance.
The fact that foids can just exist and men will put in all the effort for them, well that filled me with envy for years. You legit have to be Chad to even partially get away with that as a male, and it's still nowhere near the same.
When I first accepted AWALT it destroyed me tbh, I now admit that I once wanted a 3D foid who would accept me for who I am, and wouldn't expect me to the initiative in most scenarios. Of course I've long since accepted that such an expectation is hilariously unreasonable, and that if I ever want even a chance at getting a foid, then I'd have to suppress my own nature. That might be why it always feels like I have to put on a show for other people, I mean normies do that all the time, but I'm saying in my case, it's probably even more of a performance than usual. Having to pretend to be someone I'm not is both exhausting and totally unappealing to me. So much for "just be yourself bro", my personality and interests together create what is basically repellent to foids, nevermind my appearance.
The fact that foids can just exist and men will put in all the effort for them, well that filled me with envy for years. You legit have to be Chad to even partially get away with that as a male, and it's still nowhere near the same.