I got diagnosed with major depressive disorder when I was 16 I think. Every day feels unbearable. To feel such a way, I can't even describe it.
Like all of my hope has been taken away from me. Like someone is holding me down, and I am paralyzed, while all I feel is pain.
Nothing makes me happy, and I am constantly chasing any sort of temporary dopamine just to feel like I am not in pain.
Nobody understands what I'm going through in my personal life. No one.
These past few years have been some of the worst experiences of my life. Waking up out of a temporary peace just to feel like I'm right back in this same situation again.
It's sad to say but I cry a lot, in my room all the time. I have so much negativity built up in me, and it never goes away.
My family can feel my energy, so I just shut myself in my room all day.
I have tried to rope multiple times in my life. Even once when I was a very young child. I have never enjoyed life, and I just don't want to be here.
Been on almost every medication imaginable. I hate people who say that depression isn't real, because if they felt the way I do they would regret even uttering that statement.
I just feel alone and tired.
I guess I'm just making this post out of frustration. I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this man. Just knowing that I have so much time left brings me so much pain and misery.
I don't understand why I was made to feel this way. I just want it to stop, but there is no cure.
Like all of my hope has been taken away from me. Like someone is holding me down, and I am paralyzed, while all I feel is pain.
Nothing makes me happy, and I am constantly chasing any sort of temporary dopamine just to feel like I am not in pain.
Nobody understands what I'm going through in my personal life. No one.
These past few years have been some of the worst experiences of my life. Waking up out of a temporary peace just to feel like I'm right back in this same situation again.
It's sad to say but I cry a lot, in my room all the time. I have so much negativity built up in me, and it never goes away.
My family can feel my energy, so I just shut myself in my room all day.
I have tried to rope multiple times in my life. Even once when I was a very young child. I have never enjoyed life, and I just don't want to be here.
Been on almost every medication imaginable. I hate people who say that depression isn't real, because if they felt the way I do they would regret even uttering that statement.
I just feel alone and tired.
I guess I'm just making this post out of frustration. I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this man. Just knowing that I have so much time left brings me so much pain and misery.
I don't understand why I was made to feel this way. I just want it to stop, but there is no cure.
