RageFuel I hate every single dopamine, seratonin, oxytocin, endorphin molecule in my brain

[Jew Goy Lab Rat]

I wish they werent clouding my judgement so i could freely accept reality and rope.

Instead im stuck in a stockholm syndrome fantasy where my brain convinces me there is some hope, that i have something to live for, even that i deserve to exist.

Is there any drugs to achieve complete apathy and anhedonia so i can finally rope. (Either while high or in withdray)