No wonder you're Autistic, never stood a chance.
Ok let's see, neither parent ever held a job the entirety of since I've been alive, therefore grew up malnourished & in poverty, growth spurt started late. No support or visits with extended family, neighbourhood was highly ethnic which made me a target for racist bullies; git whitey.
Gangs of kids of my own race was after me for a period of time so my parents kept me indoors, mother had undiagnosed Diogenes syndrome (the traits were there), had to climb out of the window as my mother wouldn't let me outside at times lol, father would be laid out on valium until the afternoon & then out a lot of the day gambling or playing sports. He has the signs of high functioning autism but never got a diagnosis (I have, Asperger's). Friends turned on me & didn't have my back, dropped out of school due to all the bullying, was never taught anything by them & they seemed unapproachable to me as a child. Thought they was disappointed with me so I didn't want to get in trouble & disappoint them even more, later learned it was their mental illnesses that caused them to be aloof & uninterested.
Basically had many negative Interactions with ppl & that makes you avoid others as much as possible, you get used to the mental conditioning that others mean to harm you so you do what you can to not encounter it.
I remember I was very quiet as a kid & never really knew how to initiate conversation or keep a rapor going. Loud crowded environments always made me feel uneasy or tired after a short while.
The psychologist that assessed me this year was shocked no one at school or family members never picked up on my ASD but then again I grew up in poverty, in a shit area with definitely not normal parents & Autism has only really started gaining awareness in the last decade or so in UK.
