Besides my repulsive appearance I hate that my parents just beat me a shit ton, as an adult I am so fucking timid because of them, I flinch constantly. I won’t delve into how disgusting they are but it just involves drugs and neglect at every turn. My mother is honestly the worst though, but being constantly bullied and laughed at has just wrecked me I can’t do anything and I don’t even know why. I am a decent person I am super kind and polite to everyone even if I don’t like them I am just really stupid physically weak and that’s all physically I am a total failure and I kinda fail at everything to be honest. I did try but every time I gathered any confidence it was swiftly smashed into pieces by someone every time. Why does everyone even hate me I always just get bullied even when I’ve done nothing but share and treat people with nothing but pure kindness, why can’t I just fit in? I just want to belong somewhere without some stupid cunt annoying me, honestly I am just a ticking time bomb I’ve never released any of my stress and rage and it’s overwhelming, I just want to be treated with the same kindness I give out. I may be a bit strange and ugly but why won’t anybody just be nice to me why will no one listen to me and just help me do things without degrading me. I am honestly really angry.
