anandkonda
Adi naa pilla ra... adi naa pilla
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A little backstory about me: I’m a 17 year old Indian American. My dad came to the U.S. in the 60s and my mom came to the U.S. in the 90s. Culturally I’m very American I was born in the U.S. and my parents have been here for a while. I live in the south. Referring to the title I’m so ashamed of my skin color and culture.
I’ve been getting recommend TikToks of people asking someone what race they wouldn’t date and in every single one of these videos they say Indian. I understand people are allowed to have dating preferences but these videos make me feel so devalued and terrible. On my Instagram feed I’ve been getting recommend videos of Indian street food and the comments under these videos are always so horrible and racist.
Last year in my junior year of high school I tried to kill myself. I was tired of all my clsssmates being racist to me. They would openly do Indian accents in front of me and call me a terrorist and other horrible stuff. I remember one time this kid named Landon bought Indian food from a restaurant, came to school and dumped it on my head. This was completely humiliating and all the school did was send Landon home for the day. A girl I was talking to stopped talking to me and called me a pussy for not standing up for myself. After this happened I went home straight away and tried to slit my wrists. I guess I didn’t cut deep enough and passed out for a few hours. I woke up to my parents yelling at me in the hospital. Since then my parents and everyone in my life have been cold and distant.
I’m alone in my room crying while I type this. I have to go to university next year and I don’t think I will be able to handle it. I’m looking for any life advice. How do I keep going?