Unironically I wish I did this too, before I got old and jaded.
One of the worst parts of inceldom is all this shit being some black box and feeling like a stunted boy.
Even if, by some miracle, women became sand and went for their looksmatches, they'd bail because I, and all the other men in my position, have no experience and they're just don't care to deal with that shit.
To make no mention of the "practice" of sexuality that we incels can't perform. Do not I use the term "sexuality" on purpose, it's part of the psychological development of man, not just coitus.