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No I am not MLK lel. This is a literal dream that happened last night...
I had a fucking cutie GF. Not a stacy, nothing too special, just a cute girl that wanted to spend the rest of her life with me... We walked in a sunny field together, kissed, all the relationship stuff..... wow when I woke up I was fucking REKT. I was actually happy. TBH even during the whole morning I was happy... even though it was a dream. Just a FUCKING DREAM.. a false taste of this... made me happy.
All that bullshit "think positive, do what you want... etc" doesn't make you happy. Just fucking LOL. Now I know.... only a GF will make me happy. My mental health has deteriorated, I am depressed and anxious 24/7, and I KNOW that a GF could save me. Something to look forward to... someone who actually loves you. Not a prostitute, not material things, but another SOUL to be together with.
Yet that will never happen and it never did happen, even at 24 years of age... I spent so much of my life fantasizing about relationships and how cruel that they never happened. Not even one time, where I could have at least had a real taste, at least it would quench my rage a little.
I will live and die in TORTUROUS suffering, incomprehensible suffering, all due to a stupid little thing: invisible to women. Why do women only want chad? Why can't a woman just want me? I have many talents, my personality is great... yet 24 and KHV? I have a great family (blessed otherwise i might have actually seppuku'd)... I have a good future in terms of income and job... yet KHV at 24? Why is such a NORMAL part of human existence so hard to get? Why do women not want me?
I had a fucking cutie GF. Not a stacy, nothing too special, just a cute girl that wanted to spend the rest of her life with me... We walked in a sunny field together, kissed, all the relationship stuff..... wow when I woke up I was fucking REKT. I was actually happy. TBH even during the whole morning I was happy... even though it was a dream. Just a FUCKING DREAM.. a false taste of this... made me happy.
All that bullshit "think positive, do what you want... etc" doesn't make you happy. Just fucking LOL. Now I know.... only a GF will make me happy. My mental health has deteriorated, I am depressed and anxious 24/7, and I KNOW that a GF could save me. Something to look forward to... someone who actually loves you. Not a prostitute, not material things, but another SOUL to be together with.
Yet that will never happen and it never did happen, even at 24 years of age... I spent so much of my life fantasizing about relationships and how cruel that they never happened. Not even one time, where I could have at least had a real taste, at least it would quench my rage a little.
I will live and die in TORTUROUS suffering, incomprehensible suffering, all due to a stupid little thing: invisible to women. Why do women only want chad? Why can't a woman just want me? I have many talents, my personality is great... yet 24 and KHV? I have a great family (blessed otherwise i might have actually seppuku'd)... I have a good future in terms of income and job... yet KHV at 24? Why is such a NORMAL part of human existence so hard to get? Why do women not want me?
