Venting I guess I’m too old to have friends

[Brainy]

I went to a park and saw too teenage boys in the distance collecting rocks as I was walking to the river.

I realized I didn’t grow up with a social life due to autism and being too unattractive to really fit in anywhere.

Really I just wanted one good friend to hang out with. But unfortunately most that’s around my area are faggots. I tried making friends but they ended up turning out to be faggots and/or psychopaths.

So I’m shit out of luck on that one. I have the power to manifest objects, but never connections.

If only I had realized what life would be like when I was 16, I could have spared myself the trouble. But now I’m 30 and doomed to walk alone or rope.

I’m allergic to cats and dogs. I live with my parents so I can’t have a pet anyway.

I’m sick of vidya.

I realized what a soul is. How normies seem to know what other people are feeling/thinking and know what to say. An ability I don’t have. I try my best to blend in, but they know that I’m different. I realized I was born without a soul, what’s required to connect with others.

 

[rxkrd72]

brutal

 

[Autist]

We are social beings, and ugly men have been deprived of a normal social life. I feel completely disconnected from the world.

 

[aks74u]

I swear, if I had the chance to become dog shit, I’d take it

At least then I’d be acknowledged and picked up by someone.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I didn’t grow up with a social life due to autism and being too unattractive to really fit in anywhere

Can relate
Always alone

 

[echo.zero]

I went to a park and saw too teenage boys in the distance collecting rocks as I was walking to the river.

I realized I didn’t grow up with a social life due to autism and being too unattractive to really fit in anywhere.

Really I just wanted one good friend to hang out with. But unfortunately most that’s around my area are faggots. I tried making friends but they ended up turning out to be faggots and/or psychopaths.

So I’m shit out of luck on that one. I have the power to manifest objects, but never connections.

If only I had realized what life would be like when I was 16, I could have spared myself the trouble. But now I’m 30 and doomed to walk alone or rope.

I’m allergic to cats and dogs. I live with my parents so I can’t have a pet anyway.

I’m sick of vidya.

I realized what a soul is. How normies seem to know what other people are feeling/thinking and know what to say. An ability I don’t have. I try my best to blend in, but they know that I’m different. I realized I was born without a soul, what’s required to connect with others.

Hey man I'm sorry that's how you feel.
I get the 'no soul' feeling. It's like being born with a broken receiver while everyone else is on a different frequency. Honestly the only thing that stopped me from losing it was this weird brain dump method from a book called the artist's way. I know it sounds like normie cope, but the morning pages thing is basically just writing 3 pages of pure unfiltered schizo-posting every morning. It doesn't fix the loneliness but helped me throuw out the poison out of my head so I'm not constantly overthinking. It’s more like a survival tool than a 'self-help' thing.
As for the faggots and psychopaths in your area, yeah, finding anyone who isn't a total degenerate or a normie bot is basically impossible at 30. Sometimes just venting the internal monologue onto paper is more effective thqan one may think

 

[echo.zero]

Hey man I get the 'no soul' feeling. It's like being born with a broken receiver while everyone else is on a different frequency. Honestly the only thing that stopped me from losing it was this weird brain dump method from a book called the artist's way. I know it sounds like normie cope, but the morning pages thing is basically just writing 3 pages of pure unfiltered schizo-posting every morning. It doesn't fix the loneliness but helped me throuw out the poison out of my head so I'm not constantly overthinking. It’s more like a survival tool than a 'self-help' thing.
As for the faggots and psychopaths in your area, yeah, finding anyone who isn't a total degenerate or a normie bot is basically impossible at 30. Sometimes just venting the internal monologue onto paper is more effective thqan one may think

 

[Brainy]

Hey man I'm sorry that's how you feel.
I get the 'no soul' feeling. It's like being born with a broken receiver while everyone else is on a different frequency. Honestly the only thing that stopped me from losing it was this weird brain dump method from a book called the artist's way. I know it sounds like normie cope, but the morning pages thing is basically just writing 3 pages of pure unfiltered schizo-posting every morning. It doesn't fix the loneliness but helped me throuw out the poison out of my head so I'm not constantly overthinking. It’s more like a survival tool than a 'self-help' thing.
As for the faggots and psychopaths in your area, yeah, finding anyone who isn't a total degenerate or a normie bot is basically impossible at 30. Sometimes just venting the internal monologue onto paper is more effective thqan one may think

Good advice. I do schizopost sometimes. It's an okay cope. I found that I find a bit of solace with a combination of things. Rock collecting, watches, video games, drawing, etc.