During the daytime, my mind is typically occupied with work or sitting in front of a monitor, which somewhat whitepills/numbs me from my internal struggles & mental problems.
However, at night, I am stripped of all distractions & am forced to think about the reality of my life. Almost every night, I lie in bed for ~30min-1hr & ruminate on how far behind in life I am compared to others my age, how much I missed out on in my early life due to factors that I had little to no control over, & how bad my current overall state in life is in general.
These thoughts seriously depress me to such a degree to where they create a feeling in my stomach whenever they flood my mind (or cause me to have nightmares at times).
These thoughts (& similar ones) have grown more prevalent & intense over the past few years, especially since I’ve became blackpilled enough to view a lot of these problems/realities in a different light as well which amplified them.
I don't see much else to do in my shitshow of a country I shouldn't have even been born in besides continuing to provide for myself in order to be able to afford basic needs & copes, as I see myself going nowhere with all of my mental disorders/illnesses & piss-poor social skills holding me back.
You are truly invisible as an incel. That's the truth of being a societal loser.
However, at night, I am stripped of all distractions & am forced to think about the reality of my life. Almost every night, I lie in bed for ~30min-1hr & ruminate on how far behind in life I am compared to others my age, how much I missed out on in my early life due to factors that I had little to no control over, & how bad my current overall state in life is in general.
These thoughts seriously depress me to such a degree to where they create a feeling in my stomach whenever they flood my mind (or cause me to have nightmares at times).
These thoughts (& similar ones) have grown more prevalent & intense over the past few years, especially since I’ve became blackpilled enough to view a lot of these problems/realities in a different light as well which amplified them.
I don't see much else to do in my shitshow of a country I shouldn't have even been born in besides continuing to provide for myself in order to be able to afford basic needs & copes, as I see myself going nowhere with all of my mental disorders/illnesses & piss-poor social skills holding me back.
You are truly invisible as an incel. That's the truth of being a societal loser.
