When my mum was young she was relatively pretty but was very shy and all of her girl friends were very outgoing and chased after men whereas she never so my dad is the only man she has ever been with (they got together at 15/16).
I blame him for my ugliness because whenever I look at him or even see pictures of him when he was young all I see is ugliness. My face is about 75% from my mum but the features that I got from him make it ugly. Skin, hair, nose, ears, fat under chin, face bloat, all from him.
I would forgive this IF he was a good dad growing up but my whole childhood was him telling me that I was making too much noise, don't do this, don't do that, too untidy etc etc in a really aggressive way and it wasn't until I got older that I realised that I never actually did anything wrong. He has severe OCD and took it out on me constantly He has never punched me but has grabbed me by the throat and threatened me whenever I have answered back so basically the threat of violence was always there. This devastated my confidence because it made me feel like I needed to keep quiet in day to day life in school and in general so made me very introverted.
I could post a pic of them when they were young if anyone wants to see it. Never thought I'd be so upset to make a thread like this.
I blame him for my ugliness because whenever I look at him or even see pictures of him when he was young all I see is ugliness. My face is about 75% from my mum but the features that I got from him make it ugly. Skin, hair, nose, ears, fat under chin, face bloat, all from him.
I would forgive this IF he was a good dad growing up but my whole childhood was him telling me that I was making too much noise, don't do this, don't do that, too untidy etc etc in a really aggressive way and it wasn't until I got older that I realised that I never actually did anything wrong. He has severe OCD and took it out on me constantly He has never punched me but has grabbed me by the throat and threatened me whenever I have answered back so basically the threat of violence was always there. This devastated my confidence because it made me feel like I needed to keep quiet in day to day life in school and in general so made me very introverted.
I could post a pic of them when they were young if anyone wants to see it. Never thought I'd be so upset to make a thread like this.
