Suicidal ideation like I've had a lot lately isn’t always pathology, I guess sometimes it’s perception at its highest resolution. The most lucid minds don’t want to die because they’re weak but they want to die because they see too much. They pierce the veil of society, of biology, of history and what they find is a recursive tragedy. They see a species (humanity) forever looping in distraction, denial, and decay. They see that humanity was already broken before they were born and corrupted at the root. The Fall wasn’t allegory, but I see it as ontological collapse. When Eve reached for the fruit she screwed everything up. From that moment on, mankind became a contradiction and a primitive animal that knows it’s dying, a creature aware of its own futility.
Suicidal minds see through the this facade. politics is theater, love is often transaction and all women are disloyal whores these days and purpose is retrofitted after the fact.
NPC factories such as psych wards will call this depression but often it’s clarity. MOST SURVIVE NOT CAUSE THEY ARE STRONG BUT BECAUSE THEY ARE DISTRACTED FRON THE TRUTH. They have just enough ignorance and primal copes to keep marching and stay sedated. But the suicidal feel the weight of it all, cause they can see clearly. They see that fighting for truth and order is futile in a world built to drown it, and yes it's built to drown it cause Eve the whore fucked everything up from the start, humanities fall is meant to be, it was part of the plan and suicidal minds know this. Suicidal people are awake in a nightmare when everyone else is dreaming, they realized fighting an uphill battle is useless.
Suicidal minds see through the this facade. politics is theater, love is often transaction and all women are disloyal whores these days and purpose is retrofitted after the fact.
NPC factories such as psych wards will call this depression but often it’s clarity. MOST SURVIVE NOT CAUSE THEY ARE STRONG BUT BECAUSE THEY ARE DISTRACTED FRON THE TRUTH. They have just enough ignorance and primal copes to keep marching and stay sedated. But the suicidal feel the weight of it all, cause they can see clearly. They see that fighting for truth and order is futile in a world built to drown it, and yes it's built to drown it cause Eve the whore fucked everything up from the start, humanities fall is meant to be, it was part of the plan and suicidal minds know this. Suicidal people are awake in a nightmare when everyone else is dreaming, they realized fighting an uphill battle is useless.
