ThirdWorldIncel
ain't easy being ugly
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These recent months have been terrible.
I´m a translatorcel from Perú. I´m 29 year old and used to work in a fance english institute as a document assistant. Most of my co workers were above 40 and I could feel their pity when talking to me "you should smile more" "youre a handsome young man while arent you dating?" . Since the pandemic started, I lost my job. I live with my parentz as a NEET now, but they dont pay for my expenses other than food and shelter.
So when I come back home, my copes involve vidya, drugz and self pity. I have always wanted to learn an instrument and learn to paint. However I´m low IQ and completely untalented.
However, Ive been lately walking late at night during the curfew (Im completely deppressed) I like when the streetz are all alone and silent. I have never seen any cops around my neighborhood so Its okay.
Last week, when we were already into curfew (11:20pm) I was walking down the street that would take me home, but there were two fucking police cars pattrolling. I was smoking weed and had two more jointz inside my pocket so I started having an anxiety attack. I started running towards the first alley that would seem out of their sight. I ended up in a shady neighborhood. Since im broke af I have no data on my phone, that means no gps location...
I couldnt see clearly because I was in panic, it was dark and I have keratoconus. I was high af and also the adrenaline didnt make me feel rationally. Suddenly more blue lights appeared around the corner and I was so fucking scared that I hid behind a trash pile. I hit my head on the process with something and I realized it was wood. I waited for about 10 min before getting out.
When I came out, I realized the wooden thing that I hit was a guitar. It was old, beat up and had holes on it. But i stll had the strings and other than the scars it seemed fine (i dont know about guitarz)
I made my way back home and tried to put some tape on it.
Im inspired . I wanna learn to play. I always liked blues music but dont know anything about it. Can someone give me for some advice or insights?
@Mainländer
I´m a translatorcel from Perú. I´m 29 year old and used to work in a fance english institute as a document assistant. Most of my co workers were above 40 and I could feel their pity when talking to me "you should smile more" "youre a handsome young man while arent you dating?" . Since the pandemic started, I lost my job. I live with my parentz as a NEET now, but they dont pay for my expenses other than food and shelter.
So when I come back home, my copes involve vidya, drugz and self pity. I have always wanted to learn an instrument and learn to paint. However I´m low IQ and completely untalented.
However, Ive been lately walking late at night during the curfew (Im completely deppressed) I like when the streetz are all alone and silent. I have never seen any cops around my neighborhood so Its okay.
Last week, when we were already into curfew (11:20pm) I was walking down the street that would take me home, but there were two fucking police cars pattrolling. I was smoking weed and had two more jointz inside my pocket so I started having an anxiety attack. I started running towards the first alley that would seem out of their sight. I ended up in a shady neighborhood. Since im broke af I have no data on my phone, that means no gps location...
I couldnt see clearly because I was in panic, it was dark and I have keratoconus. I was high af and also the adrenaline didnt make me feel rationally. Suddenly more blue lights appeared around the corner and I was so fucking scared that I hid behind a trash pile. I hit my head on the process with something and I realized it was wood. I waited for about 10 min before getting out.
When I came out, I realized the wooden thing that I hit was a guitar. It was old, beat up and had holes on it. But i stll had the strings and other than the scars it seemed fine (i dont know about guitarz)
I made my way back home and tried to put some tape on it.
Im inspired . I wanna learn to play. I always liked blues music but dont know anything about it. Can someone give me for some advice or insights?
@Mainländer