SuicideFuel I finally found out what's worse than walking by the school where I was bullied for years

[WorthlessSlavicShit]

It's walking by that building while seeing a lovey-dovey teen couple in front of it, hugging, making out and feeling each other up, while I just quietly walk around it like an NPC, trying not to remember how shit all the years I've spent there were. I've wanted to see that building demolished ever since I left it, and probably even sooner tbh, I don't even remember at this point, and not only did I feel like shit seeing that it's still standing, but I also had to watch those two there, having the time of their lives and creating beautiful, warm, teen/first love memories they will lovingly remember for the rest of their lives right by the place that still appears in my nightmares even 10+ years after I've left it and about which I really have just about no good memories.

Given his clothes, the guy looked like he was into sports, obviously, and even from the distance I could see that he had that basic, TikTok prettyboy douchebag face all of us have seen a thousand times already, while his girlfriend seemed to be the goth type, with all black clothes matching her black hair. Not yet a big tiddy goth gf, but given their age, she could very well be one in a few years.

They were literally this meme, except with a goth girl in place of a blonde cheerleader, the guy being a bit less muscular and more prettyboyish, and me as a living example of what that text is saying:

 

[Eventy]

I hate this picture to death, absolute suifuel.

 

[faded]

It's walking by that building while seeing a lovey-dovey teen couple in front of it, hugging, making out and feeling each other up, while I just quietly walk around it like an NPC, trying not to remember how shit all the years I've spent there were. I've wanted to see that building demolished ever since I left it, and probably even sooner tbh, I don't even remember at this point, and not only did I feel like shit seeing that it's still standing, but I also had to watch those two there, having the time of their lives and creating beautiful, warm, teen/first love memories they will lovingly remember for the rest of their lives right by the place that still appears in my nightmares even 10+ years after I've left it and about which I really have just about no good memories.

Given his clothes, the guy looked like he was into sports, obviously, and even from the distance I could see that he had that basic, TikTok prettyboy douchebag face all of us have seen a thousand times already, while his girlfriend seemed to be the goth type, with all black clothes matching her black hair. Not yet a big tiddy goth gf, but given their age, she could very well be one in a few years.

They were literally this meme, except with a goth girl in place of a blonde cheerleader, the guy being a bit less muscular and more prettyboyish, and me as a living example of what that text is saying:

If it helps you feel better they are both in severe debt to Jewish bankers by now (in gta)

 

[Efiliste]

ovER

 

[TheJester]

Brutal

 

[Fazz35]

This post put me in a bad mood. It's brutal

 

[faded]

It's walking by that building while seeing a lovey-dovey teen couple in front of it, hugging, making out and feeling each other up, while I just quietly walk around it like an NPC, trying not to remember how shit all the years I've spent there were. I've wanted to see that building demolished ever since I left it, and probably even sooner tbh, I don't even remember at this point, and not only did I feel like shit seeing that it's still standing, but I also had to watch those two there, having the time of their lives and creating beautiful, warm, teen/first love memories they will lovingly remember for the rest of their lives right by the place that still appears in my nightmares even 10+ years after I've left it and about which I really have just about no good memories.

Given his clothes, the guy looked like he was into sports, obviously, and even from the distance I could see that he had that basic, TikTok prettyboy douchebag face all of us have seen a thousand times already, while his girlfriend seemed to be the goth type, with all black clothes matching her black hair. Not yet a big tiddy goth gf, but given their age, she could very well be one in a few years.

They were literally this meme, except with a goth girl in place of a blonde cheerleader, the guy being a bit less muscular and more prettyboyish, and me as a living example of what that text is saying:

They still need to obey Jewish laws and pay ((((taxes)))))

 

[SoycuckGodOfReddit]

They were literally this meme, except with a goth girl in place of a blonde cheerleader

over for cheerleadercels

 

[lifesucksandyoudie]

Thankfully all the cheerleaders at my school were ugly so I didn't lust after them

 

[VideoGameCoper]

I was out a few weeks ago going on a bike ride and saw a young teen couple. Shit made me so sad because I will never have teen love, even if I do somehow ascend.

 

[DarkStar]

It's walking by that building while seeing a lovey-dovey teen couple in front of it, hugging, making out and feeling each other up, while I just quietly walk around it like an NPC, trying not to remember how shit all the years I've spent there were. I've wanted to see that building demolished ever since I left it, and probably even sooner tbh, I don't even remember at this point, and not only did I feel like shit seeing that it's still standing, but I also had to watch those two there, having the time of their lives and creating beautiful, warm, teen/first love memories they will lovingly remember for the rest of their lives right by the place that still appears in my nightmares even 10+ years after I've left it and about which I really have just about no good memories.

Given his clothes, the guy looked like he was into sports, obviously, and even from the distance I could see that he had that basic, TikTok prettyboy douchebag face all of us have seen a thousand times already, while his girlfriend seemed to be the goth type, with all black clothes matching her black hair. Not yet a big tiddy goth gf, but given their age, she could very well be one in a few years.

They were literally this meme, except with a goth girl in place of a blonde cheerleader, the guy being a bit less muscular and more prettyboyish, and me as a living example of what that text is saying:

Very relatable thread, though it sounds as if you walked past whatever your equivalent of middle-school would be as opposed to your "high school"

Middle-school was somewhat alright for me, but HS is where it really began to get rough & I saw just how brutal the world is.

Every single time I have to drive past my old HS, I always feel this sense of dread come over me: All the bad memories of bullying, torment, rejection, etc. come flooding back. I too, also wish I could see it demolished.

And that image is relatable as fuck

 

[kay']

Extremely brutal and relatable because my school is close to my house so i see it often

 

[sennaGTR]

It's walking by that building while seeing a lovey-dovey teen couple in front of it, hugging, making out and feeling each other up, while I just quietly walk around it like an NPC, trying not to remember how shit all the years I've spent there were. I've wanted to see that building demolished ever since I left it, and probably even sooner tbh, I don't even remember at this point, and not only did I feel like shit seeing that it's still standing, but I also had to watch those two there, having the time of their lives and creating beautiful, warm, teen/first love memories they will lovingly remember for the rest of their lives right by the place that still appears in my nightmares even 10+ years after I've left it and about which I really have just about no good memories.

Given his clothes, the guy looked like he was into sports, obviously, and even from the distance I could see that he had that basic, TikTok prettyboy douchebag face all of us have seen a thousand times already, while his girlfriend seemed to be the goth type, with all black clothes matching her black hair. Not yet a big tiddy goth gf, but given their age, she could very well be one in a few years.

They were literally this meme, except with a goth girl in place of a blonde cheerleader, the guy being a bit less muscular and more prettyboyish, and me as a living example of what that text is saying:

for some reason it never felt as brutal to see these teenage couples. before I was blackpilled I was heavy heavy into the world of gaming, reading, programming and making games with my other incel and incel-adjacent friends online. Joined discord in summer of 2016, like a month after it came out.

Sure I wanted to have a relationship but with someone else who had a sensitive mind. That life that normies lived, the life described in that picture, sounded like HELL to my non-neurotypical brain. You're talking about always being at football games, drunken parties, always hanging out with a fucking snapchat loving foid whore, loud music and loud ghetto niggers at your parties fighting over foids like apes fighting over women. I used to view these people as below me in their actions in middle and highschool, yet they would always act like they were better than me for being social and that made me feel like shit. It was the most brutal in elementary school I immediately got outcasted from normie circles because of my reserved behavior I genuinely wanted to kill myself in like the third grade. I hated normies ever since.

Only in my early 20's did I realize that I was a loser. The value I find in books and the internet is seen as completely fucking pointless to normies. Neurotypicals have a brain where they actually enjoy those highly stimulating environments, their brain doesn't get fucking exhausted with all those handshakes and "what's good bro" surface level conversations and drug usage. That's when I started to be envious of normies and their ability to actually enjoy that AND nut inside of a foid that desires them. Because they just ignorantly enjoyed doing all that shit while I suffered depression and only enjoyed my time alone.

whenever I pass school now I feel kind of what you feel, those blissfully ignorant normies and their relationships with girls that desire them. But I still remember that I never wanted to be them. I still don't think i'd want to be them. I just wanted the brain and life I have now + an intelligent foid that desires me. which doesn't exist.

 

[WorthlessSlavicShit]

Very relatable thread, though it sounds as if you walked past whatever your equivalent of middle-school would be as opposed to your "high school"

Yup. Elementary + middle school, actually. I think most countries in this part of the world, and apparently some other as well, have this system where there are some seperate middle schools (gymnasiums) but most people just continue in their elementary school where they'll have "secondary education", which is literally just continuing with the same people and so on but now you guys are in another part of the building.

Middle school - Wikipedia

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Middle-school was somewhat alright for me, but HS is where it really began to get rough & I saw just how brutal the world is.

Every single time I have to drive past my old HS, I always feel this sense of dread come over me: All the bad memories of bullying, torment, rejection, etc. come flooding back. I too, also wish I could see it demolished.

I see. It was somewhat the opposite for me, since the HS I went to was effectively all-male, so at least the guys there weren't motivated to show off to girls by bullying the ugly low-status losers, but of course there was a lot of bullying either way, though what I had before was hell on Earth for me, so it was still preferable.

It's really the sheer amount of time I've spent in the former coupled with the fact that I've never been anything else than the loser of the school the entire time I was there that I don't think I can ever get over.

for some reason it never felt as brutal to see these teenage couples. before I was blackpilled I was heavy heavy into the world of gaming, reading, programming and making games with my other incel and incel-adjacent friends online. Joined discord in summer of 2016, like a month after it came out.
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Same. Years ago, not only I hadn't yet discovered places like this one to bring the reality of my situation to my focus, but the agepill hadn't yet hit me at all and I genuinely barely noticed that I was falling behind everyone else. No hiding from it anymore though.

Sure I wanted to have a relationship but with someone else who had a sensitive mind. That life that normies lived, the life described in that picture, sounded like HELL to my non-neurotypical brain. You're talking about always being at football games, drunken parties, always hanging out with a fucking snapchat loving foid whore, loud music and loud ghetto niggers at your parties fighting over foids like apes fighting over women. I used to view these people as below me in their actions in middle and highschool, yet they would always act like they were better than me for being social and that made me feel like shit. It was the most brutal in elementary school I immediately got outcasted from normie circles because of my reserved behavior I genuinely wanted to kill myself in like the third grade. I hated normies ever since.

Only in my early 20's did I realize that I was a loser. The value I find in books and the internet is seen as completely fucking pointless to normies. Neurotypicals have a brain where they actually enjoy those highly stimulating environments, their brain doesn't get fucking exhausted with all those handshakes and "what's good bro" surface level conversations and drug usage. That's when I started to be envious of normies and their ability to actually enjoy that AND nut inside of a foid that desires them. Because they just ignorantly enjoyed doing all that shit while I suffered depression and only enjoyed my time alone.

Straight from the heart brocel.

whenever I pass school now I feel kind of what you feel, those blissfully ignorant normies and their relationships with girls that desire them. But I still remember that I never wanted to be them. I still don't think i'd want to be them. I just wanted the brain and life I have now + an intelligent foid that desires me. which doesn't exist.

Indeed.

 

[Limitcel]

some men never die and some men never live
but we are all alive tonight
fuck normies

 

[Limitcel]

I was out a few weeks ago going on a bike ride and saw a young teen couple. Shit made me so sad because I will never have teen love, even if I do somehow ascend.

My cope is that in high school I tried and didn't achieve anything so I can't even pretend that it's like I threw my chances away because I never really had them

 

[Limitcel]

for some reason it never felt as brutal to see these teenage couples. before I was blackpilled I was heavy heavy into the world of gaming, reading, programming and making games with my other incel and incel-adjacent friends online. Joined discord in summer of 2016, like a month after it came out.
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Sure I wanted to have a relationship but with someone else who had a sensitive mind. That life that normies lived, the life described in that picture, sounded like HELL to my non-neurotypical brain. You're talking about always being at football games, drunken parties, always hanging out with a fucking snapchat loving foid whore, loud music and loud ghetto niggers at your parties fighting over foids like apes fighting over women. I used to view these people as below me in their actions in middle and highschool, yet they would always act like they were better than me for being social and that made me feel like shit. It was the most brutal in elementary school I immediately got outcasted from normie circles because of my reserved behavior I genuinely wanted to kill myself in like the third grade. I hated normies ever since.

Only in my early 20's did I realize that I was a loser. The value I find in books and the internet is seen as completely fucking pointless to normies. Neurotypicals have a brain where they actually enjoy those highly stimulating environments, their brain doesn't get fucking exhausted with all those handshakes and "what's good bro" surface level conversations and drug usage. That's when I started to be envious of normies and their ability to actually enjoy that AND nut inside of a foid that desires them. Because they just ignorantly enjoyed doing all that shit while I suffered depression and only enjoyed my time alone.

whenever I pass school now I feel kind of what you feel, those blissfully ignorant normies and their relationships with girls that desire them. But I still remember that I never wanted to be them. I still don't think i'd want to be them. I just wanted the brain and life I have now + an intelligent foid that desires me. which doesn't exist.

tbh who the fuck they like parties so much? its fucking pointless for me

 

[VideoGameCoper]

My cope is that in high school I tried and didn't achieve anything so I can't even pretend that it's like I threw my chances away because I never really had them

Brutal

 

[DarkStar]

some men never die and some men never live
but we are all alive tonight
fuck normies

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