Venting I feel trapped

[Pancakecel]

I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Years of ostracization, and the loneliness that comes with that has ruined me. I have become an alcoholic because of it, and my mind is a complete fucking mess. I am always re running through experiences in my head, the stares, laughter, disgust from others in the past. It is eating me up alive. I will never be accepted by society, and just people in general. Anyways, hope you all have a decent weekend.

 

[TINMAN]

Anyways, hope you all have a decent weekend.

You too bro

 

[I want to believe]

My life is shitty, but I've never tasted alcohol, btw. I feel like I can be considered strange even among incels.

 

[Mecoja]

Life is a scam, we should have been told from beginning that it never begun.

 

[TINMAN]

My life is shitty, but I've never tasted alcohol, btw. I feel like I can be considered strange even among incels.

You're not missing out on much tbh.

 

[Quarantined]

wish I could learn not to care about my past

 

[I.N.C.E.L.S. Boss]

I have no frens too, but I stay away from alcohol. If a drop of ethanol lands on my tongue, i know i will become addicted.
Try to not replay the bad memories in your brain, so you don't reinforce them.

 

[BornToLose]

Relatable. I raise my glass to you sir.

 

[turbosperg]

Life is a scam, we should have been told from beginning that it never begun.

Life is a scam if you're neither foid nor Chad.

have become an alcoholic because of it

Many alcoholics drink to deal with loneliness. Same goes for other drugs.

 

[Sennacherib]

I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Years of ostracization, and the loneliness that comes with that has ruined me. I have become an alcoholic because of it, and my mind is a complete fucking mess. I am always re running through experiences in my head, the stares, laughter, disgust from others in the past

Same except the alcohol part

 

[dew]

My life is shitty, but I've never tasted alcohol, btw. I feel like I can be considered strange even among incels.

Same, I've only drank beer 2 times. Might try alcohol fr, my thoughts are destroying me.

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

Can relate. I don't know what to do with my life and it's hard to see the me ever integrating into society

 

[RuudVanNistelrooy]

To be sexually undesirable is to be socially isolated. You only hang out with similar losers i presume.

 

[Pancakecel]

To be sexually undesirable is to be socially isolated. You only hang out with similar losers i presume.

Lol, I don't hang out with anyone, I have no friends. This forum is it.

 

[BaffleTrot]

Do you at least have a job? Some kind of reason to wake up in the world?

There's been times where I considered that I don't even have plants to water. My job was making me miserable, and I can be replaced. Made me feel very disconnected from the world, like I didn't have any real role in it. I went and got some plants so that I at least have something that's alive and depends on me. Isolation really fucks with your head.

 

[Jaundice]

I feel trapped in life also