SuicideFuel I feel that every moment in life is overshadowed by the pain of an unattractive face

[black_depresso]

Dont you guys feel the same?

Even if you try to delude yourself with things that might give simple pleasure, like a good burger, a good porn session or a good video game

Its almost impossible to just zone out and stay happy/content, because your mind forcefully pushes your awareness back to your face, and how pitiful it is. That's the best way I can describe it. When I look at my face in the mirror, I feel pity. When im doing anything on the computer, if I smile or laugh for half a second, I remember my recessed chin, narrow jaw and balding head and I lose the positive emotion instantly. When im eating a burger from mcdonalds after gym, I do so solemnly, remembering my sunken eyes and cheekbones, the droopy tired dog look of my negative canthal tilt, and I remember just how depressed and miserable and unappealing I look.

Constantly thinking about how I will VERY LIKELY never be genuinely loved by anyone. Even if my personality manages to attract a genuinely good hearted 0.0000001% girl who falls for my sweetness, it wont be her fault that over time she'll start to succumb to her hormones and emotions and want to get affection, sex and validation from better looking men. Men which physically signal/demonstrate high genetic quality.

And then I will feel bad, because I will know that she really gave it a massive effort to try to be a good girlfriend and she just can't continue pretending she has attraction to me anymore.

It puts a certain darkness on your lived experience. Darkness where there should have been light. Grey, cold misery where there should have been colourful, warming love.

 

[Sparrow's Song]

You cannot look cool or feel good about anything you are doing when you have an ugly face. Imagine being a really badass guitar player and writing the best psychodelic solos the world has seen in 20 years... You would still look stupid and pathetic doing it. There is always a failo effect hovering over your ugly head when you're a truecel. Nothing you can do will ever make you feel like a "winner" when your face resembles a genetic loser.

To me, the ugliness is worse than the celibacy. I understand why everyone hates me, my face is ugly and that's human nature to hate me for it. Still, I cannot escape hating myself as much as they hate me because I cannot bear my pitiful face. I'm legit actually feeling sick to my stomach right now as I'm typing this.

You're right about the dark reminder that even if you landed a NAWALT unicorn who could look past your face, it wouldn't last forever because instincts always win and chad always wins. Even normies and chadlites have some degree of this feeling in the back of their heads because deep down, every non chad knows that his foid would always prefer a chad over them on an instinctive level.

 

[black_depresso]

You cannot look cool or feel good about anything you are doing when you have an ugly face. Imagine being a really badass guitar player and writing the best psychodelic solos the world has seen in 20 years... You would still look stupid and pathetic doing it. There is always a failo effect hovering over your ugly when when you're a truecel. Nothing you can do will ever make you feel like a "winner" when your face resembles a genetic loser.

To me, the ugliness is worse than the celibacy. I understand why everyone hates me, my face is ugly and that's human nature to hate me for it. Still, I cannot escape hating myself as much as they hate me because I cannot bear my pitiful face. I'm legit actually feeling sick to my stomach right now as I'm typing this.

You're right about the dark reminder that even if you landed a NAWALT unicorn who could look past your face, it wouldn't last forever because instincts always win and chad always wins. Even normies and chadlites have some degree of this feeling in the back of their heads because deep down, every non chad knows that his foid would always prefer a chad over them on an instinctive level.

This is life 24/7 for me. I feel you man.

 

[tehgymcel420]

No matter what I do, I am always reminded that I am ethnic.

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

Cope or rope.

 

[Glokta]

Your physical attractiveness dictates the way your entire life will play out, and there's no better indicator of physical attractiveness than a good-looking face. After all, when humans interact with one another, they primarily look at someone's face. A good-looking face is simply pleasant to look at. An ugly face sentences you to a life of misery. It guarantees some of your needs will remain unfulfilled forever. You feel miserable and sad when that happens. It's a natural reaction. Your brain reminds you that some of your needs are unfulfilled and something should be done about it.

Normalfags sometimes say: "forget about girls, focus on you career / hobbies / passions bro" but life doesn't work that way. You can't substitute one need for another and call it a day. When you're running out of oxygen then eating better won't save you. You still suffocate to death nonetheless. We have many poorfags here, but incels with money are still incel and still feel miserable. Stacks of paper and ones and zeroes on a bank account aren't substitutes for basic human validation.

Afterall, intimacy, companionship and sex are basic human needs. You feel bad when you're unable to fulfill them because unfulfilled needs prevent you from operating at peak efficiency. There are many studies showing how much loneliness negatively impacts your physical health proving just how important fulfilling those basic needs really is.

 

[Deleted member 18435]

All I want is to just be treated better and be shown some appreciation and affection but my looks, my non NT brain, and extremely cruel society damned me for life.