I feel like a ghost, both inside and outside this forum. Beyond my parents and my best friend, I have virtually no one to talk to EVER. Until two weeks ago, I didn’t even have a job—now, at least, my coworkers know I exist. Aside from them, perhaps only two to five people in total are even aware of me (mostly distant family).
If I were to disappear, I doubt more than three messages would appear in my WhatsApp. It’s as if I barely exist. My serotonin levels feel depleted, and even when I try to cry, I can’t anymore. The only source of companionship I truly had—my dog—passed away in early January, and since then, I have never felt this alone,what future do I even have? I don´t have siblings as well so imagine how lonely that is. When I get to home there is no one here too and im not getting payed until the end of march.... if this forum didn´t exist I would feel Rootless and Forsaken as if no one felt this pain because everyone else I see in real life have normal lives... I don´t know what I did to deserve to be this lonely......
If I were to disappear, I doubt more than three messages would appear in my WhatsApp. It’s as if I barely exist. My serotonin levels feel depleted, and even when I try to cry, I can’t anymore. The only source of companionship I truly had—my dog—passed away in early January, and since then, I have never felt this alone,what future do I even have? I don´t have siblings as well so imagine how lonely that is. When I get to home there is no one here too and im not getting payed until the end of march.... if this forum didn´t exist I would feel Rootless and Forsaken as if no one felt this pain because everyone else I see in real life have normal lives... I don´t know what I did to deserve to be this lonely......
