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p9intless
hapa, failed sperg
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- Joined
- Aug 23, 2024
- Posts
- 37
I feel like I need people in my life.
At the point in life I am at right now, I feel like I NEED a social circle. I NEED friends. I can't stand being with myself all the time, and I want someone to share my interests with or to hang out with. Everything feels meaningless without people to do things with.
It's probably too late now. I'm obviously not NT so people are going to automatically exclude me from things. I missed out on a bunch of developmental milestones in high school because I barely interacted with people; as a consequence, I'm a socially stunted adult who doesn't know how to interact with other people.
I was literally at the bottom of the social hierarchy in high school. No one treated me with respect. People were scared of me. They did not want to be near me. No one wanted to sit beside me and have a conversation with me.
I only had a handful of people who I consider to be genuine friends.
I can't mask my autism because I have a speech impediment and the fact that I can't form proper sentences on-the-fly. People always assume that I'm retarded.
I don't think college is going to be better. I don't think I'm ever going to form fulfilling relationships with other people.
Is it going to be like this forever? I don't like this.
At the point in life I am at right now, I feel like I NEED a social circle. I NEED friends. I can't stand being with myself all the time, and I want someone to share my interests with or to hang out with. Everything feels meaningless without people to do things with.
It's probably too late now. I'm obviously not NT so people are going to automatically exclude me from things. I missed out on a bunch of developmental milestones in high school because I barely interacted with people; as a consequence, I'm a socially stunted adult who doesn't know how to interact with other people.
I was literally at the bottom of the social hierarchy in high school. No one treated me with respect. People were scared of me. They did not want to be near me. No one wanted to sit beside me and have a conversation with me.
I only had a handful of people who I consider to be genuine friends.
I can't mask my autism because I have a speech impediment and the fact that I can't form proper sentences on-the-fly. People always assume that I'm retarded.
I don't think college is going to be better. I don't think I'm ever going to form fulfilling relationships with other people.
Is it going to be like this forever? I don't like this.