Venting I feel like my life is falling apart

[WastedPotential]

Last year I remember starting university for the first time and at least then I could build up the motivation to attend lectures in the first period. Now is my second year and it's extremely difficult to motivate myself to go each time. I just end up sleeping in and rotting behind my pc every day. On top of that my parents are on the brink of separation. And my dad has been terminally ill for a few years.

Sitting behind my PC playing videogames, watching NSFW and youtube is my only way of coping. I realise that over the past decade it has developed into a strong form of avoiding the weight of reality. But I feel like every day I come closer to having to face my demons, I don't know how long I can keep going.

 

[Animecel2D]

Sounds exactly like my uni experience

ended up dropping out after the end of the second year

 

[zd60]

I don't know how long I can keep going.

same

 

[Ibrahim997]

Face your demons while they are weak.
Your dad being sick is out of your control but going to one lecture is a huge difference between you and harsh realitys pain.

 

[Cuckoja]

Relatable, i used to feel the same. Now I feel like my life ended.

 

[Paladin]

I know my life is falling apart

 

[VeryNiceGuy]

I dont even know how i managed to progress at all my semesters in uni

 

[scrully]

I have difficulty keeping motivation too, there are weeks where I don't show up to classes because I just can't get myself too or feel to weak due to my disease. I end up rotting away on those days too.

 

[antisocialcel]

I don't have money for college.

Sometimes things get better out of nowhere.

I hate that term "NSFW" , what is that supposed to mean? Works are different from each other, and who has time or even allowed to consume any entertainment at work? None of this makes sense. I hate this.

 

[Cuckoja]

feel to weak due to my disease

What disease you have brocel? Sorry, i just saw in your signature. Im sorry bro.

 

[Soystein]

Last year I remember starting university for the first time and at least then I could build up the motivation to attend lectures in the first period. Now is my second year and it's extremely difficult to motivate myself to go each time. I just end up sleeping in and rotting behind my pc every day. On top of that my parents are on the brink of separation. And my dad has been terminally ill for a few years.

Sitting behind my PC playing videogames, watching NSFW and youtube is my only way of coping. I realise that over the past decade it has developed into a strong form of avoiding the weight of reality. But I feel like every day I come closer to having to face my demons, I don't know how long I can keep going.

You gotta put your energy into the coursework, don't drop out it is worse than anything else that might happen.

My dad died when I was 25 and I have coped and rotted behind the PC for decades, I do not recommend it if you have any other option.

 

[pwnedcel]

It’s not that you’re escaping the realm of reality. It’s the fact that the world is a place of hell for you, and every inch of it where you try to improve never works. I’ve been there man, and I still am. All I can do is hope that my soul is taken away sooner than later

 

[PepsiTwistCel]

stay strong brocel

 

[scrully]

What disease you have brocel? Sorry, i just saw in your signature. Im sorry bro.

thanks brocel. Yea I was sadly born with Cardiomyopathy.

 

[BlackPilledNormi]

Ive never been to college or university, all I can say is, it makes no difference.

You cant avoid facing your inner demons but even this changes nothin, they will torture you anyway, there is nothin to do about it, besides accepting it