I feel like I never had the opportunity to grow up

[Minjaze]

I am basically a developmentally stunted man-child that plays RPGs for hours, reads comics, collects action figures, and lives with his mom. 

The whole point of puberty is growth, yet I feel like I stopped growing around 14 or so. While my peers were having their awkward first kiss or sexual experience, I was busy being a fucking loser and getting avoided by every girl in sight. I never even had a job due to the depression that came with being rejected by everyone. 

As a result, I am incredibly immature and irresponsible today. Whenever someone asks me about my plans for the future, I don't know what to say since I feel like I shouldn't be at that point yet. I mean, it's like not being able to beat the tutorial and then being thrown into the hardest level of the game.

 

[KV-]

Yeah I get some sort of the same feel. While I do still manage to work study hard, it feels like all my body and brain wants to do is get a gf. I feel quite immature in my spirit and a relationship would be what is needed to make the next step towards being complete as a person.

I know normies would say stuff like "you're childish and uncomfortable in your own skin no wonder you're incel" but, I mean, its a feedback loop.

 

[Zaetheus]

Get a bottle of your baby batter and throw it at roasties.itll give u an opportunity.

 

[Minjaze]

Yeah I get some sort of the same feel. While I do still manage to work study hard, it feels like all my body and brain wants to do is get a gf. I feel quite immature in my spirit and a relationship would be what is needed to make the next step towards being complete as a person.

I know normies would say stuff like "you're childish and uncomfortable in your own skin no wonder you're incel" but, I mean, its a feedback loop.

Props for having the will to go to school, I couldn't handle it emotionally.

Yeah, no matter what you do there's still this emptiness inside you. 

Normies don't get how essential love/companionship is for human beings, they take what they have for granted. It's literally in our biology to seek a partner.

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Get a bottle of your baby batter and throw it at roasties.itll give u an opportunity.

And then pee on them to assert dominance.

 

[mariaimdrunk]

Once I realized that I was undesirable, a lot of my motivation to "succeed" vanished. What am I self-improving for anyways? On r/foreveralone there's a myriad of "I'm a professional" or "I own a house and two cars" posts, but they still hate their lives. There's no reason for me to climb the corporate ladder; I'm not interested in the adult-pacifier called video games; I'm not interested in any type of money-sucking hobby like cars or photography. The sole purpose of life is to propagate your genes. I failed.

 

[QuantumDummy]

Even after holding multiple jobs, I still feel like a man-child. I hate every facet of my being, I hate being me, I hate looking at life through these particular eyes and perspective. I hate being so mentally weak, a coward, one that's scared of confrontation, riddled with anxiety, less than human. Nothing, no one.

 

[Minjaze]

Once I realized that I was undesirable, a lot of my motivation to "succeed" vanished.  What am I self-improving for anyways?  On r/foreveralone there's a myriad of "I'm a professional" or "I own a house and two cars" posts, but they still hate their lives.  There's no reason for me to climb the corporate ladder; I'm not interested in the adult-pacifier called video games; I'm not interested in any type of money-sucking hobby like cars or photography.  The sole purpose of life is to propagate your genes.  I failed.

Yet normies have the nerve to say that a gf wouldn't solve our problems.

Seriously, what's the point in having all of this stuff when you're still miserable? Money or material things can't replace a loving kiss on the lips. 
If I somehow escaped, I'd be incredibly happy and motivated. My life would finally have purpose.

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Even after holding multiple jobs, I still feel like a man-child. I hate every facet of my being, I hate being me, I hate looking at life through these particular eyes and perspective. I hate being so mentally weak, a coward, one that's scared of confrontation, riddled with anxiety, less than human. Nothing, no one.

I know that feel man, sorry you're going through it. :/

At this point, I'd rather be anyone but me.

 

[cookinbreakfast]

R u me

 

[KyloRen]

I'm continually amazed as to how universal all our experiences have been. I've certainly felt like that, a part of me is missing, something that is holding me in my tracks, unable to grow. I see those around me who are in relationships, and they all seem to have this aura around them. Something that I certainly don't have. We have the same age, study the same subject, want to achieve the same goals, live independently, and yet they have experienced a fulfilling emotion of which I never have.

It feels like a void in your soul.