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RealSchizo
utter failurecel who fails at everything
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I cannot function as a normal person during the day nor want to do anything so I rot until late night hits and go outside to nightwalk , contemplate about life , drink and smoke. All that I look forward to in life are the nightwalks which make me feel alive for a few hours. I just know that there is no way that I can improve my life anymore I've tried everything and failed miserably or some misfortune happened which scarred me for life. I really start fearing death less and less with each passing day and I don't care whether I live or not. What used to push me away from the idea of roping was my mother but when I think about it I don't want her to see me being a complete failure in 10 more years. I really feel like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I am completely lost, lonely, depressed, mentally ill and struggle every single second I spend alive on this awful planet. I have no appetite, no will to leave my bed , no will to play video games or interact with people. I have nothing going on for me I quit my driving lessons because I sucked, no job and all of my friends left me years ago.