Venting i feel guilty when i rot on here

[Chuddy McChud]

title, not because i feel bad for being hateful or whatever, it just seems like i am wasting my life, although i know if i got band from here id just rot some place else like 4cuck.

I wish i was born before the internet, i hate having the freedom to do these things to myself, i wish i never had access to the internet, alcohol, video games- nothing

it fills me with anxiety to see all my days slip away, all of them identical to the last, every minute I'm closer to death and i know when that day finally comes ill look back on my life unsatisfied and fearful of what's to come next, but for some reason this isn't enough to motivate me to do anything, I feel like this is what normies would call "burn out" but i have nothing to be burnt out over, I've rotted hard for the last couple months, I don't think I'm going to feel any different if i continue doing what I'm doing

 

[zd60]

I used to feel the same a long time ago, but now I feel nothing, I actually enjoy my time alone on the internet way more than I think I ever could spending my time irl nowadays, I've been hooked on the internet since about the age of 5-7 and there's always something to do or explore I wouldn't let the thought of rotting get into your mind too much if you can help it

 

[Animecel2D]

I dont

 

[zd60]

I dont

based

 

[Chuddy McChud]

I used to feel the same a long time ago, but now I feel nothing, I actually enjoy my time alone on the internet way more than I think I ever could spending my time irl nowadays, I've been hooked on the internet since about the age of 5-7 and there's always something to do or explore I wouldn't let the thought of rotting get into your mind too much if you can help it

i guess i understand that, i too have been rotting on the internet my whole life basically. I don't share that feeling of exploring something new though, maybe we consoom different media, but i feel like even when i find something new and fresh its just numbing me out and turning my brain off rather then doing anything for me. i guess thats my problem i need to stop "wanting"

 

[SilverBullet]

I dont

 

[zd60]

i guess i understand that, i too have been rotting on the internet my whole life basically. I don't share that feeling of exploring something new though, maybe we consoom different media, but i feel like even when i find something new and fresh its just numbing me out and turning my brain off rather then doing anything for me. i guess thats my problem i need to stop "wanting"

Oh no I experience the same feeling of numbness even if something new is outthere to explore and I do it, I still experience a empitenss feeling, but I've spent essentially my whole life on the internet that doing anything different feels like a huge chore so I guess its more of a comfort feeling, I wouldn't fully know how to explain it besides a complete numb emptiness

 

[jartiyer1]

For me, the outside world is not more attractive than the internet.

 

[Chuddy McChud]

Oh no I experience the same feeling of numbness even if something new is outthere to explore and I do it, I still experience a empitenss feeling, but I've spent essentially my whole life on the internet that doing anything different feels like a huge chore so I guess its more of a comfort feeling, I wouldn't fully know how to explain it besides a complete numb emptiness

yeah i think ik what you mean bro, i still get fomo tho, its not a super strong feeling just a constant nagging feeling at the back of my mind telling me i could be doing any number of more important things then this but like you leaving this place feels like a herculean task.

 

[zd60]

yeah i think ik what you mean bro, i still get fomo tho, its not a super strong feeling just a constant nagging feeling at the back of my mind telling me i could be doing any number of more important things then this.

I understand that, I feel the same sometimes though its more and more muted these days, I'm pretty disabled so I knew it was over from the start I've pretty much just rotted my entire life since childhood

 

[Chuddy McChud]

I understand that, I feel the same sometimes though its more and more muted these days, I'm pretty disabled so I knew it was over from the start I've pretty much just rotted my entire life since childhood

we are both broken people, good luck brocel

 

[zd60]

we are both broken people, good luck brocel

good luck too brocel

 

[Fantasea]

my main hobby is listening to music so i'm not really missing out on anything

 

[EternalStorm]

I used to feel the same a long time ago, but now I feel nothing, I actually enjoy my time alone on the internet way more than I think I ever could spending my time irl nowadays, I've been hooked on the internet since about the age of 5-7 and there's always something to do or explore I wouldn't let the thought of rotting get into your mind too much if you can help it

 

[Gokusolos]

title, not because i feel bad for being hateful or whatever, it just seems like i am wasting my life, although i know if i got band from here id just rot some place else like 4cuck.

I wish i was born before the internet, i hate having the freedom to do these things to myself, i wish i never had access to the internet, alcohol, video games- nothing

it fills me with anxiety to see all my days slip away, all of them identical to the last, every minute I'm closer to death and i know when that day finally comes ill look back on my life unsatisfied and fearful of what's to come next, but for some reason this isn't enough to motivate me to do anything, I feel like this is what normies would call "burn out" but i have nothing to be burnt out over, I've rotted hard for the last couple months, I don't think I'm going to feel any different if i continue doing what I'm doing

 

[poorenglishcel]

Nothing is your fault.