Sasukecel
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I'm only 18, but I've been through all of the stages. Depression, times where I would just beat myself in the knee and face, divorced parents, Dad gone with the milk, don't have contact with him, suicidal thoughts, trying and failing anyways.
However, despite that, I'm not actually going to unalive myself, because I feel grateful knowing that there's brocels who relate to what I've experienced.
So stuff happened, I feel crap. My ugly face only amplifies that.
I've also noticed I'm just fed up with female hypocrisy. No, I'm not a closet fag. No, I'm not asexual. Maybe you relate to this too. I don't even feel the point in jerking off. Because female nature is just so annoying. When I try to jerk off, I can't, because why feel lust if I'm never going to get laid? I don't develop crushes or sexual fantasies of girls because "Why bother?", "What's the point?" Before I would be horny, trying to peak glances at girls, but now I don't want to. I don't see the point in doing so. Why simp, when she feels disgust?
Women are like annoying, children. I went on the monkey app a couple days ago again because I guess I just like being called ugly as a way of making myself feel more shit, and they acted like children. Some fat chick was doing a tiktok dance with her friend, I didn't even say anything, then girl just started laughing like crazy, "You look like an eel!" with more laughter. I literally said "Ok", and she was jumping all around like a child. I'm ugly, ok? Relax nigga, no need to jump around like a clown. I didn't even insult her back. I said "Ok.", skipped, and that was it.
It's just a headache. I guess I just want peace at this point. I don't hate women, yet I don't feel attracted to them. In my head, it's like an annoying kid who doesn't know what they're doing.
Because women are more emotional-based, I guess.
I guess before the internet, as a child, I interpreted women in my head to be feminine, quiet, respectful, empathetic and mature. But after being exposed to the internet, most women are confrontational, bratty, rude, immature, and overall annoying.
Unless you're a chad, then they swoon over you.
Am I just salty? Maybe. It's weird. I used to develop massive crushes on girls, literally do the whole relationship in head thing, but now I'm like meh. I don't care. i'm not going to simp. I'm not going to put women on a pedestal because they wouldn't give me the time of day, I'm not going to hate women because I wouldn't hate a child, and yeah, I'm just annoyed with women, and tired of my shitty situation, in which my family is broken, my face is broken, my mental health is broken, and the genuine desire to do something with my life, that I once had, is broken.
However, despite that, I'm not actually going to unalive myself, because I feel grateful knowing that there's brocels who relate to what I've experienced.
So stuff happened, I feel crap. My ugly face only amplifies that.
I've also noticed I'm just fed up with female hypocrisy. No, I'm not a closet fag. No, I'm not asexual. Maybe you relate to this too. I don't even feel the point in jerking off. Because female nature is just so annoying. When I try to jerk off, I can't, because why feel lust if I'm never going to get laid? I don't develop crushes or sexual fantasies of girls because "Why bother?", "What's the point?" Before I would be horny, trying to peak glances at girls, but now I don't want to. I don't see the point in doing so. Why simp, when she feels disgust?
Women are like annoying, children. I went on the monkey app a couple days ago again because I guess I just like being called ugly as a way of making myself feel more shit, and they acted like children. Some fat chick was doing a tiktok dance with her friend, I didn't even say anything, then girl just started laughing like crazy, "You look like an eel!" with more laughter. I literally said "Ok", and she was jumping all around like a child. I'm ugly, ok? Relax nigga, no need to jump around like a clown. I didn't even insult her back. I said "Ok.", skipped, and that was it.
It's just a headache. I guess I just want peace at this point. I don't hate women, yet I don't feel attracted to them. In my head, it's like an annoying kid who doesn't know what they're doing.
Because women are more emotional-based, I guess.
I guess before the internet, as a child, I interpreted women in my head to be feminine, quiet, respectful, empathetic and mature. But after being exposed to the internet, most women are confrontational, bratty, rude, immature, and overall annoying.
Unless you're a chad, then they swoon over you.
Am I just salty? Maybe. It's weird. I used to develop massive crushes on girls, literally do the whole relationship in head thing, but now I'm like meh. I don't care. i'm not going to simp. I'm not going to put women on a pedestal because they wouldn't give me the time of day, I'm not going to hate women because I wouldn't hate a child, and yeah, I'm just annoyed with women, and tired of my shitty situation, in which my family is broken, my face is broken, my mental health is broken, and the genuine desire to do something with my life, that I once had, is broken.