alone_in_the_end
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I never wanted these feelings, but all the things I experienced with them really make me feel in a way I never wanted. I feel like a pavlov dog in this type of situation, jailed in a cage forced these conditions with no escape route. It is the same principle. It has already been burned in my brain I can't even suppress it. If, for some reason, I need to talk with one of them, I really struggle to act like I don't feel annoyed at even being close to one of them.
As an example, if 80% of the time you meet a group of people dressed in green shirts that will mock you, belittle you, act with contempt and not hold back any mean thoughts they have about you, with time every occasion you see someone dressed in green, this bad feelings will appear automatcally, and boy I did have a long time with this happeneing to me.
Feeling this hate was never my choice, infusing my mind with them was their pleasure.
As an example, if 80% of the time you meet a group of people dressed in green shirts that will mock you, belittle you, act with contempt and not hold back any mean thoughts they have about you, with time every occasion you see someone dressed in green, this bad feelings will appear automatcally, and boy I did have a long time with this happeneing to me.
Feeling this hate was never my choice, infusing my mind with them was their pleasure.