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Deleted member 101
I just wanna be loved, but don’t think I’m worthy
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My depression is getting worse. I’m not sleeping anymore. I cried in front of my folks today after we fought about some stupid shit I don’t remember what. I don’t really wanna fucking talk about it. I have no safety net. It’s 3:30 in the morning in Chicago and I’m doing nothing but laying in bed, listening to Brand New and trying not to cry myself to sleep because I am begging to be held. Loved. Wanted. Not...isolated. Scared.
I am not an evil and hateful person despite being an incel. I’m just a broken man.
I’m grateful that I don’t have any crushes right now. Because I would be a huge mess if I did with my current mental state. Might end up in outpatient care again if that happened lol.
I wish I wasn’t so old where I would feel weird cuddling with my parents like when I was a kid. But it wouldn’t feel right. So alone I must be in this bed.
I am not an evil and hateful person despite being an incel. I’m just a broken man.
I’m grateful that I don’t have any crushes right now. Because I would be a huge mess if I did with my current mental state. Might end up in outpatient care again if that happened lol.
I wish I wasn’t so old where I would feel weird cuddling with my parents like when I was a kid. But it wouldn’t feel right. So alone I must be in this bed.
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