Everyday, I wake up, eat nearly the same 10 foods, do the same thing, and I don't have any other option. I've literally, in every sense of the word, stuck, and I cannot get out of it. It's a few parts humiliating and a few parts defeating. I just wish I could've been born as someone else, as a HTN at least, with no underlying health issues and a rich family. Why am I still here, just to suffer? Every day, I wake up and look in that mirror, coping and hoping, that if I lose this weight, and with a little bit of luck, I could at least be a MTN, but I know the day will never come. No matter how much I try, no matter how much I try and improve myself, no matter how much I try and smile through it all, one constant will still remain, my shitty genetic makeup. I am a failed product, wasn't expected or wanted, my parents try to hide that but I sure as shit know they're lying to me. I hate when I don't get enough sleep, all these restless nights make me too weak to cope, and the reality of my situation sets in. Fuck my life dude.
