Incline
I just have to keep going...
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How do you even live your life? I feel like I am living on just exist mode. I do stuff, I go work, I exercise and then I go to sleep. I do not feel alive. I have this rare emotion surges sometimes during the days, they only last for a split second but it is such a unique experience that I can always recognize when it happens. I feel alive for that brief moment, I feel like I exist, like I can live my life the way I want to. But then it disappears no matter how hard I try to hold it and I'm back to the old gloomy just exist mode.
I am honestly not enjoying life tbh. I don't even know what to do anymore. My entire life purpose at the moment has been reduced to going to SEA and trying to ascend. But even then I honestly feel less human every day. I don't even know if I'll make it there. I don't even know who I am anymore. What I am. I want this to be over already.
I am honestly not enjoying life tbh. I don't even know what to do anymore. My entire life purpose at the moment has been reduced to going to SEA and trying to ascend. But even then I honestly feel less human every day. I don't even know if I'll make it there. I don't even know who I am anymore. What I am. I want this to be over already.