I don't care about being an incel

[fullofchagrin]

My depression and life circumstances have gotten so bad that I don't even want a girlfriend or friends anymore. It would not lessen my suffering in any meaningful amount. Every second of my existence is pain and suffering. I literally don't have a single second in any day that I am not either in mental stress or physically extremely uncomfortable. Not a single day in the past 3 years that I didn't wish I could kill myself. The torment knows no bounds; every time I say I have hit my lowest and think it can't get worse, it does. I want to say that I'm grateful that it's not worse but I am not, I don't have to watch my family starve, be harmed, and I'm not being actively tortured (even though I wonder sometimes if I live in some simulation made to torture me), but I am worried that it will keep getting worse, because it does

 

[aryanmikmaq]

My depression and life circumstances have gotten so bad that I don't even want a girlfriend or friends anymore. It would not lessen my suffering in any meaningful amount. Every second of my existence is pain and suffering. I literally don't have a single second in any day that I am not either in mental stress or physically extremely uncomfortable. Not a single day in the past 3 years that I didn't wish I could kill myself. The torment knows no bounds; every time I say I have hit my lowest and think it can't get worse, it does. I want to say that I'm grateful that it's not worse but I am not, I don't have to watch my family starve, be harmed, and I'm not being actively tortured (even though I wonder sometimes if I live in some simulation made to torture me), but I am worried that it will keep getting worse, because it does

I’m sorry man

 

[fullofchagrin]

Jacking off used to be my only form of pleasure and my mental state has gotten so bad that not even that is enjoyable anymore, but stressful. The last time I masturbated was a few weeks ago, it was stressful and tiring but I forced myself through it just so I could get those few seconds of pleasure during the orgasm, but not even the orgasm felt good. I got so sad when I orgasmed and didn't even feel physical pleasure. Going through this, gradually losing the ability to feel positive feelings and only being more and more susceptible to depression is so horribly tormenting. That was the final straw. I don't think I will ever feel joy again anymore.

 

[Itsoverm8]

I have no reason to live

 

[fullofchagrin]

I have no reason to live

I wish that was true for me. I would have killed myself a hundred times over. Already got the experience and know how to do it properly

 

[Itsoverm8]

I wish that was true for me. I would have killed myself a hundred times over. Already got the experience and know how to do it properly

I wish it was easy to do it I would’ve been done it , I just survive the day.

 

[fullofchagrin]

I wish it was easy to do it I would’ve been done it , I just survive the day.

Yeah survival instinct is a bitch, for many people even if they are straight up being tortured and they know death is inevitable for them they won't be able to kill themselves


We are born without our consent into these vessels that are extremely susceptible to suffering with no way out

 

[McFlurryCel]

@Truest truecel

 

[Sir Silentium]

My depression and life circumstances have gotten so bad that I don't even want a girlfriend or friends anymore.

Same here, I am just whitepilled to it now.

 

[ZeeZ]

I highly doubt that any woman could fix this hurt inside of me so why even bother

 

[flute_snoop]

We are born without our consent into these vessels that are extremely susceptible to suffering with no way out

 

[Pikacel]

1000% I’m not even functional bro who even cares about pussy

 

[Genetics_subhuman]

My depression and life circumstances have gotten so bad that I don't even want a girlfriend or friends anymore. It would not lessen my suffering in any meaningful amount. Every second of my existence is pain and suffering. I literally don't have a single second in any day that I am not either in mental stress or physically extremely uncomfortable. Not a single day in the past 3 years that I didn't wish I could kill myself. The torment knows no bounds; every time I say I have hit my lowest and think it can't get worse, it does. I want to say that I'm grateful that it's not worse but I am not, I don't have to watch my family starve, be harmed, and I'm not being actively tortured (even though I wonder sometimes if I live in some simulation made to torture me), but I am worried that it will keep getting worse, because it does

Incel funeral?

 

[French Fakecel]

I am so sorry for you man. I can relate 100% to you so I guess we are not alone.

 

[Wither]

1000% I’m not even functional bro who even cares about pussy

 

[Wither]

I am so sorry for you man. I can relate 100% to you so I guess we are not alone.

rare sighting of someone being empathetic on .is, nice

 

[PTSD Marsupials]

Cope with video games

Also watch Jordan Peterson on YouTube. Look for his videos on the meaning of life and stuff.

Go to therapy if U want, but its pretty shit in my experience and can make U feel even worse

Imo only male psychologists with 150+ IQ are worth seeing

I have more copes, msg me if U want to know

 

[French Fakecel]

rare sighting of someone being empathetic on .is, nice

This is wrong. We should be nice to each other as life is already harsh on us.

 

[fullofchagrin]

I am so sorry for you man. I can relate 100% to you so I guess we are not alone.

time passes so slowly, i can't even remember posting this thread. these past few weeks have been worse than i could ever imagine. there is nothing that has changed in my life, but my mind is torturing me more and more and more harshly, it only keeps getting worse over the years, never gets better or stabilizes, i feel like i am being tested how much i can withstand before killing myself



would you want to explain how you're feeling? i would like to hear how you relate to me

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

Average ignorecuck content

 

[Eternatus]

There’s many of us don’t u worry, we just lack the will to write it a lot. Even now i just wanna rot in the ground but I’m making a effort just to tell u this.

 

[fullofchagrin]

Average ignorecuck content

what do you mean?

 

[fullofchagrin]

Even now i just wanna rot in the ground but I’m making a effort just to tell u this.

ah this feels relatable

 

[Smiggles]

I highly doubt that any woman could fix this hurt inside of me so why even bother

 

[French Fakecel]

time passes so slowly, i can't even remember posting this thread. these past few weeks have been worse than i could ever imagine. there is nothing that has changed in my life, but my mind is torturing me more and more and more harshly, it only keeps getting worse over the years, never gets better or stabilizes, i feel like i am being tested how much i can withstand before killing myself



would you want to explain how you're feeling? i would like to hear how you relate to me

It's mostly the fact that being an incel is not in my top priorities. I have suffered from depression for eight years and it was diagnosed way too late when I tried to end my life. I looked so pathetic on my hospital bed when the ambulance came to me. Since then nothing has really changed (in worse maybe, because I dropped college) and I have a feeling of emptiness and immense sadness about the fact that I have not done anything productive during these eight fucking years, while I had so many dreams and aspirations when I was little. My only hope would be a "reset" (because even if I wanted to change, I wouldn't know where to start and I think it's to late anyways), hoping that the gods will have thrown better dice for me in my next life with a better environment and living conditions.

 

[Wither]

i have no reason to live which is why i mustl

This is wrong. We should be nice to each other as life is already harsh on us.

i totally agree