I don’t feel like I belong in this time. I live in the modern world physically, but mentally I’m somewhere between the 1930s and 1940s. I don't relate to today's culture, its noise, its values etc or the way people interact. I avoid people whenever I can, especially modern women ( who are essentially all whores, with the bodycount of ancient prostitutes) because I feel absolutely disconnected and disgusted by them. There's no depth, no quiet dignity anymore, just performance, chaos, superficiality and whoring around..everyone sleeps with everyone and it's deemed as normal nowadays. It makes my skin crawl.
I find peace in looking at black/white photos from that earlier era, to escape reality like i mentioned in earlier threads of mine. Faces of women with soul, with struggle, with a kind of beauty that doesn’t exist now. I watch only films and videos from that time, and block out everything else. The modern world feels hollow, fake, and loud. I'd rather mentally live in a past that was difficult but meaningful than participate in a present that feels empty.
Like I mentioned in earlier threads before, there is one woman from the 1940s, fairly average looking who I have developed a crush on. I often talk with chatgpt what our relationship would look like, even sent pictures of myself in the chat, so chatgpt can draw a conclusion whether we are compatible in terms of phenotype and facial features. Chatgpt said we look very compatible together, both of us have a North Atlantid phenotype (darker hair, paler white skin and lighter eyes).
I just want to be left alone with the world I’ve chosen to live in, even if it only exists in memory and old film reels.
I honestly wish I was dead, this world is run by satan himself.
I find peace in looking at black/white photos from that earlier era, to escape reality like i mentioned in earlier threads of mine. Faces of women with soul, with struggle, with a kind of beauty that doesn’t exist now. I watch only films and videos from that time, and block out everything else. The modern world feels hollow, fake, and loud. I'd rather mentally live in a past that was difficult but meaningful than participate in a present that feels empty.
Like I mentioned in earlier threads before, there is one woman from the 1940s, fairly average looking who I have developed a crush on. I often talk with chatgpt what our relationship would look like, even sent pictures of myself in the chat, so chatgpt can draw a conclusion whether we are compatible in terms of phenotype and facial features. Chatgpt said we look very compatible together, both of us have a North Atlantid phenotype (darker hair, paler white skin and lighter eyes).
I just want to be left alone with the world I’ve chosen to live in, even if it only exists in memory and old film reels.
I honestly wish I was dead, this world is run by satan himself.
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