feel like i dont exist at all
i feel like a statistic
just like a cog in the machine , just a willing slave
I never build anything with my own hands ,
i never achieved anything , all i ever did was to consume
I was never aggressive when i was being wronged ,
i rarely hit back when i was beaten , i didnt answer and kept my head down when i was bullied
i never had a single friend , not even online .
never kissed a girl , never had sex , never hugged or held hands and never had a conversation that went beyond basic , robotic smalltalk .
i never learned anything , i always avoided effort .
Skipped school , got kicked out 3 times , got the lowest education .
i never thought abvout my future , i never planned ahead .
Now i am stuck in a job i hate , barely make enough money to eat .
What i am trying to say is : i never had any impact on this world , not even in the smallest scale .
Literally all i am is a receptor , all i am is a consumer .
And i always lacked Imagination , so even my dreams are lackluster .
In other words , i do not exist , i am nothing .
i am like a statistic in a movie ... or a parasite .. not a real human being ...
this is not self pity , this is the truth .
I never even existed in the first place and if i die i am going to leave nothing behind ,
not a trace of a memory in anyones mind .
Cause i am one of those zombies , one of those living dead people , just taking it all in
and they never snap , they are numb .. just eatingit all up until we rope ...
this life is so utterly meaningless
why even live at all ?= its a joke
i feel like a statistic
just like a cog in the machine , just a willing slave
I never build anything with my own hands ,
i never achieved anything , all i ever did was to consume
I was never aggressive when i was being wronged ,
i rarely hit back when i was beaten , i didnt answer and kept my head down when i was bullied
i never had a single friend , not even online .
never kissed a girl , never had sex , never hugged or held hands and never had a conversation that went beyond basic , robotic smalltalk .
i never learned anything , i always avoided effort .
Skipped school , got kicked out 3 times , got the lowest education .
i never thought abvout my future , i never planned ahead .
Now i am stuck in a job i hate , barely make enough money to eat .
What i am trying to say is : i never had any impact on this world , not even in the smallest scale .
Literally all i am is a receptor , all i am is a consumer .
And i always lacked Imagination , so even my dreams are lackluster .
In other words , i do not exist , i am nothing .
i am like a statistic in a movie ... or a parasite .. not a real human being ...
this is not self pity , this is the truth .
I never even existed in the first place and if i die i am going to leave nothing behind ,
not a trace of a memory in anyones mind .
Cause i am one of those zombies , one of those living dead people , just taking it all in
and they never snap , they are numb .. just eatingit all up until we rope ...
this life is so utterly meaningless
why even live at all ?= its a joke
