I can't even cry

[D. B. Gooner]

Every time I have my mental episode I feel deep sadness. I can physically feel it in my throat and chest. I have an urge to cry but I just can't do it. I can never cry. I sometimes try acting out the motions of a person crying, but no tears come out.

I only ever cry when I'm really angry and that hasn't happened in 7 years, which was the last time I truly cried. I was a big crybaby as a kid and I remember it feeling almost euphoric with how much relief it would give me. Why can't I cry

 

[LayDownAndKakarot]

I can’t cry unless I’m having a full blown rant out loud about how fucked up my life is. I usually have to be really pissed off until it finally spills out, and once it does it’s not regular crying but rather blood curdling sobs.

 

[D. B. Gooner]

it’s not regular crying but rather blood curdling sobs.

I miss those.