I cannot comprehend sex disconnected from emotion

[ServusLuciferi]

I feel like I'm really charitable with people and I try to put myself in other people's shoes and understand, rationally, why they do the things they do, unless it jumps to the level of psychopathy / sociopathy.

And within that bucket of psychopathy / sociopathy, to me, is sex completely disconnected from social and emotional connection to that person.

It's an act that seems beyond comprehension to me. It's like an "error does not compute" sign.
I have literally 0 problem with sex, but this...ugh.

I recently went to like 4 bars a Friday night to try to find some bar slut (didn't work, no women in any of them that were alone), but even I felt dirty and desperate doing that, like this is something that I wouldn't ordinarily do if I just had a girlfriend at some point.

At some levels its more repulsive than getting a prostitute, because with a prostitute, it's just a transaction; this is like social and emotional gamesmanship just to get your dick wet.

When you are talking to normies and they just bring up sex completely disconnected from intimacy casually, it's the most morally repulsive thing to me. Like "bro, don't you want to get your dick sucked? Blowjobs feel great, you should try to get a girl to suck your cock". It's like what the fuck? Like, cool, enjoy it, but it's not the fact that you are doing the act with someone you genuinely feel attraction to and are happy to be with that makes it worth more?

I don't know, I'm too much of a virgin. Fuck.

 

[Faykcel]

I can tell you are high IQ from the post. Totally agree with what you said. It will never be possible for IQcels like us to disconnect sex from intimacy. It's a shame too because people who wants sex to be very intimate are seemingly more rare by the day.

This is off topic, but it seems like you might be empathetic and at times overly conscientious. I was raised with a lot of feminine influences in my life which caused me to have these traits. Being overly conscientious can be a huge detriment to your life/psyche if left unnoticed. Does this resonate with you at all?

 

[unuser]

Prostitute sex in most times seem so lowly and filthy

I still want to do it though

However I don't think hook up and one night stands are disconnected from emotion. It's still connected to mutual attraction and primal instincts, differently from "pay->sex->neuron activation", which is like a mice pressing a button in a cage

I think prostitution is not like that only in the case of soldiers in a war or of pirates in the 16th-17th centuries idk

 

[Angry_runt]

I can't comprehend sex. Like foids voluntarily wanting physical intimacy with me, that's the complete opposite of how the world seems to work.

 

[kretschmer]

I don't know, I'm too much of a virgin. Fuck.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

I recently went to like 4 bars a Friday night to try to find some bar slut (didn't work, no women in any of them that were alone), but even I felt dirty and desperate doing that, like this is something that I wouldn't ordinarily do if I just had a girlfriend at some point.

You assign more worth to holes than they actually have.

 

[subhuman]

bro what the fuck. you just put your penis in a vagina and it just feels good. you dont need to be all "muh holier than thou" about it, thats all it ever was

 

[Cristo]

Prostitute sex in most times seem so lowly and filthy

I still want to do it though

However I don't think hook up and one night stands are disconnected from emotion. It's still connected to mutual attraction and primal instincts, differently from "pay->sex->neuron activation", which is like a mice pressing a button in a cage

I think prostitution is not like that only in the case of soldiers in a war or of pirates in the 16th-17th centuries idk

Hm, good take. It does involve some kind of “work”.

I can't comprehend sex. Like foids voluntarily wanting physical intimacy with me, that's the complete opposite of how the world seems to work.

Same

 

[ServusLuciferi]

bro what the fuck. you just put your penis in a vagina and it just feels good. you dont need to be all "muh holier than thou" about it, thats all it ever was

Don't mean to become holier than thou art. I'm pretty fucking useless as a 25 year old virgin, I have no grounds to be above anybody. This is just how I feel, even if it's a result of religious brainwashing.

 

[ServusLuciferi]

This is off topic, but it seems like you might be empathetic and at times overly conscientious. I was raised with a lot of feminine influences in my life which caused me to have these traits. Being overly conscientious can be a huge detriment to your life/psyche if left unnoticed. Does this resonate with you at all?

No real father figure, daddy was an obese manchild control freak. My only real father figure was my grandfather but my parents made no real effort to meet with them more than two times a year.

 

[ServusLuciferi]

I can't comprehend sex. Like foids voluntarily wanting physical intimacy with me, that's the complete opposite of how the world seems to work.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

No real father figure, daddy was an obese manchild control freak

Nice. Would you like to hear the story of two males who were not born with White DNA?

 

[ServusLuciferi]

Nice. Would you like to hear the story of two males who were not born with White DNA?

Go for it

 

[HurdyGurdyMan]

I cannot comprehend my own existence let alone intimacy.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Go for it

Okay!

Justus:

Intellau:

My mother, as kind as she may be, used to grab me very forcefully(By the neck, as I was fidgeting with items; I would ache from it) and repeatedly tell me "Do you hear me!?! If people see you doing that, they will think you are men-tally retar-ded!" while shaking me and shaking the item near my eyes. She would tell me how embarrassing it is to have an autistic son who fidgets with items as a form of stimulation. Other times, she would hit me. When I said, "Please don't hit me!" once, she started laughing.

When I was a four-year-old, my parents and I lived in a duplex, where my father would hit Mother and damage the walls, resulting in holes near a wooden desk she used for sewing. I recall pouring soap in my eyes at this age to stop them from arguing.

When we moved, my father would regularly come home and argue with Mother over anything he disliked. He broke the windows in our living room as well as the windows in our kitchen, he broke a "Leopard Statue", he broke our kitchen table, he broke plates, he threw Mother's computer and clothes into the garbage bin. He'd regularly pound on Mother's room door(Used for crafts). He'd yell at Mother as he was driving her to work.

One day, Mother was asked by my father to write a check, which she did. However, he was angry because she was drying off after a shower. This led him to shove her onto the floor(She was naked) and kick her legs repeatedly, which I was present for and saw. He also broke her fingers and cut her knuckles, injured her knees and kicked her abdomen. Our utilities were cut off three times due to failure to pay, and the result was living with my paternal grandparents for weeks at a time. On the day we moved in with my maternal grandparents, me and Mother sat in the dark since my father didn't pay the utility bill("Well, then leave"; he left the house after yelling, which I hid from).

Understood.

When I was in my early teens, my father would constantly denigrate my autistic traits. He would often tell me,

"Why are you so shameful all the time?" (I was anxious and kept my head down in public)

"We're going to grandma's house, hurry up!"(He wanted to make himself seem like an excellent father by showing her his son)

"You're moving so slowly"(He would hit me; I was sluggish from ASD/trauma)

"Your cousins are better than you!" (Again, anxiety and depression)

"I'm saying this to be kind. Don't anger me." (If I was struggling to go inside a store due to anxiety)

I once had Pyelonephritis and was fairly weak from it to the point of needing to stay home when my father wanted to visit a store. My father, instead of asking me if I took my prescribed antibiotics, simply told me, "Hurry up, let's go see grandma". He then asked Grandma to patronize me for my "disobedience".

 

[1337hikki]

Yeah I don't understand rough, animalistic sex at all. I'd honestly rather kiss a girl than fuck her, if I had to choose between the two

 

[Lycan]

Yeah I don't understand rough, animalistic sex at all. I'd honestly rather kiss a girl than fuck her, if I had to choose between the two

facts

 

[bigantennaemay1]

It's probably because you have a soul.