Venting I can no longer think

[BlueEnix]

i'm mentally ill, i don't want to kms but I can't change, I left my room for the first time in a while yesterday and it was a wakeup call to how subhuman I am, I really am fucked in every way, Idk what I'm going to do. My anxiety is getting worse the older I get it seems like I have intrusive thoughts and constant brainfog and am a manlet, facecel, brainlet loser just lol I was thinking about sui so hard yesterday while struggling to fucking not make a complete fool of myself in front of an older stacie and I'm nearly 25. I can't fight this thing consuming me, my life is a bad joke I would cry if I could.

It seems like the older I get the more averse from death I am, when I was younger I thought I would just face that shit but now there's just endless layers of anger and baggage and frustration and hatred towards life

 

[BlueEnix]

I mean the whole day I had that "is this real life" feeling and can't even hold small talk at all anymore, I've completely ascended to some bottom feeding subhuman existence, I live in a great country, with opportunity, all I had to do was be a functional normal person and I couldn't do that. FUCK FCUK FUCKFUFCKLFIUCKUJFKFICJH NOW IT'S OVER!!!! IT'S OVER!!! IT'S OVER BEFORE IT BEGAN IT'S NOT RIGHT!!!

I would say "i would be lucky to get a shit job" at this point but no I wouldn't it's all cope I'll be thinking about sui daily till I die. You cannot live like this, you need copes, people cannot understand this hell.

 

[chaoslogos]

Sorry to hear that. I guess my advice would be to find some cope that's meaningful to you and takes up a lot of your time.

 

[Evil Genius]

it will get better bro

 

[VST]

I don't want to think.

 

[BlueEnix]

Sorry to hear that. I guess my advice would be to find some cope that's meaningful to you and takes up a lot of your time.

it will get better bro

I don't want to think.

thanks for the replies, I really just need to grow a pair and get on anti-depressants regardless of humiliation from normies just a matter of digging myself out of this loser life

 

[SoutheastKami]

Power is fleeting... time is running out...

 

[BlueEnix]

Power is fleeting... time is running out...

I already know it's over, the question is what to do with the leftovers of a failed human, i'm still somewhat cognitive at times.

 

[mylifeistrash]

being mid late 20s is hard mentally

feels like time is running out. you start raging.

at least at 30 you've accepted failure

 

[St.Tropez]

Oldcel=over
Kids will never know our pain

 

[BlueEnix]

being mid late 20s is hard mentally

feels like time is running out. you start raging.

at least at 30 you've accepted failure

sigh

 

[gstvtrp]

You don't need to think. We already know the blackpill is truth. We have thought enough.

 

[BlueEnix]

You can never relive those days. The people who sprout the "age is just a number" don't understand anything. Men who try to catch up on lost time in their late 20s/early 30s are seen as juvenile and a little creepy. My peers are pushing ahead in their careers, getting married, taking out mortgages whereas I still feel 16 years old inside

it's good to be reminded of this hell