It's Over I am so scared

[Robb97]

Recently I had a psychotic break where I went through hell. It was drug-induced, but once that happens, the risk of developing schizophrenia is really high.

I'm scared of going back there. I am scared of losing my brain and being trapped not only in this truecel body but also trapped with a brain that doesn't work anymore. That won't even let me kill myself because I'll be too retarded to do it.

I'm scared of having my head curb stomped by a group of teenagers who don't like my face and waking up having lost my sanity. Unable to end it, so I'll have to suffer for decades to come. Normies don't want the best for me, they simply don't care at all. Which is scary when I'm unable to look after myself.

I have faith in God, I hope he will look after me. And my body will die eventually. I just hope normies won't turn me into a sick experiment to see how long they can keep me alive.

 

[Cuckoja]

Did it happen because of the drugs? Dont take them then.

 

[idgaf]

Listen to the voices

 

[asdfghjqbbbb]

at least you know you can come back from it

 

[Robb97]

at least you know you can come back from it

I was monitoring the time every couple of minutes and it kept moving forward. In a couple of minutes, I experienced so much in my brain it was insane. But every now and then I came back to reality.
One time I ran outside, tore my shirt and jumped into the window wanting it to stop. My brain was going in loops. When it was at the absolute worst I legitimately thought I went one level lower in the "game" of a sadist overlord. And I thought I would never come back to this life. It felt like a smaller less complex reality than this one.

 

[asdfghjqbbbb]

I was monitoring the time every couple of minutes and it kept moving forward. In a couple of minutes, I experienced so much in my brain it was insane. But every now and then I came back to reality.
One time I ran outside, tore my shirt and jumped into the window wanting it to stop. My brain was going in loops. When it was at the absolute worst I legitimately thought I went one level lower in the "game" of a sadist overlord. And I thought I would never come back to this life. It felt like a smaller less complex reality than this one.

what drug induced this?

 

[Rabbi Schneerson]

Listen to the voices

 

[Rabbi Schneerson]

Title tho

 

[Robb97]

what drug induced this?

it was a combined effect

I wanted to NT max